Night Shift

Sorry to hear that @BlueBay. Is your headache gone at least? Did you manage to decide yet about taking some time and going to hospital? (saw your post from late yesterday in Hospital or not just now)

I had a rough night here too. Another DV fight next door (called police but they didn't talk to me when they came) which left me really on edge and hypervigilant again, bouncing up off the bed every time I heard anything.

Seems like making that call might be a good idea @BlueBay. It could also be that you are having side effects from the recent shift with your meds, but things have been difficult for you for a while now and a respite in hospital might be really helpful. You can decide with your psychiatrist.

I think what you've been doing with visualizing the new home you can create if you downsize is really positive. Once when I was looking for a new home I sat down and drew a picture of what I hoped for. The next day I found exactly that.

I've had less than 4 hrs sleep @BlueBay so I'm going to try to have a nap. Hoping things work out ok for you today.

Sorry @Faith-and-Hope, i had a terrible night the past 2 nights, really bad panic attacks, plus i have been helping two people without any of their families supporting them, i am trying to deal with it all on my own.

just struggling, but thank you for thinking of me @Faith-and-Hope, it is much appreciated. sorry i can't post more.

Take care, hugs

Jacques

Hi @BlueBay

I read about your headache yesterday but I lacked the time to do much on-line - it took ages to reset my computer but here I am now.

A trip into a private cllnic might be a good move right now - honestly - I would not suggest this if I was not really concerned - from what I am reading life is becoming very challenging for you - and a few days rest might make one hell of a difference -

You must be so tired 😞 - how I wish I could say more that would help - I have been chatting away with you for a few weeks now and I think you are doing the best you can

HI @eth

I imagine that your DV call last night meast Domestic Violence. It's better that the police didn't come and see you - whoever was having that wonderful time are people you don't want to have in your life - and if the police came and saw you then those people would know you called them.

I lived in a high density area before I moved here - (which is very safe) - there were rows and rowdy parties all the time - and I lived on the edge until I could move here.

It is so unpleasant having fights going on around you - no wonder you were bouncing out of your bed for the rest of the night. Are you living in flats or units that are close together? If so - if anyone gets the idea you ring the police once - you will be blamed for all the calls - and more than one person will be ringing them - that's for sure.

Where I live now is quiet - though people share their music from time to time - thank goodness we can have a DVD so we can block out other people's noise - but domestic violence is a worse problem.

I hope you are safe though - and you can have some peace

Decadian

It's good that you are staying in touch with us @Jacques

@Please remember to be taking some time for yourself in all this, even if it's a short walk every now and then. Just turn your attention to something else here and there to rest your mind and emotions a little. Short breaks are better than nothing @Jacques. It's so important for you.

Hugs 💚

Thank you so much for reaching out to me @Faith-and-Hope, i am so humbled you think of me and ask how i am doing, i am trying to take time out, but i struggle to as the two friends seem to take up most of my time, one friend last night had their parent tell them to go ahead and do it, how can a parent be so cruel, i was so upset with the lack fo support some families give.

sorry just venting, i am going to play some games now, thank you once again for your kindness and thoughts.

Jacques

Hi @BlueBay

@I hope you are feeling a little better this morning. We all need our healing sleep, even if it's coming to us in small pieces.

Small pieces can make very beautiful jig-saw puzzles, if we just keep joining a few together here and there ...

Have you been back to the therapy sessions where you worked with the coloured balls ? You found some support there that day, including a warm hug. That is out-patient therapy isn't it ?

I hope you get to a walk in the beach today.

💜🌷💜

It's okay to vent @Jacques. That is part of what the forums are here for, and yes, it is so sad when families don't offer support, but they are poorer for it. Your love and can is being invested in changing the cycle in those families. Your friends are receiving love and support from somewhere - you - and I hope that attracts more love and support for them. Even you telling us that they are struggling has the flow-on effect that we can send loving thoughts their way as well.

Glad to hear you are taking some time to play games. Enjoy !

Be well @Jacques