Night Shift

Hi @eth, @Former-Member, @plasmo, @Decadian and whoever else might be around.

Haven't been to sleep so far tonight since napping for about 90 mins until about 10pm. Been enjoying some video editing, as well as getting frustrated with it. It's often a test of patience!

@Former-Member, I read what you were writing about going to the party and how you felt anxious before and over analytical afterwards. I am so much like that. At the time of socialising I often seem to be relatively okay. But it takes a lot out of me before and after.

@eth, my social circle has reduced a lot and I almost never go to parties. I think the last one was my own 50th birthday, which was really just a dinner at a local club for about 12 people. Haven't seen some of them since (almost 4 years ago), others very rarely. I'm usually better with one-on-one or small groups these days. And not too often, otherwise I get overloaded.

@plasmo, cool that you went for a walk. I went out on the beach hoping for one today but my legs clapped out on me so I came home.

@Decadian, glad to hear you too enjoy Next Gen. Are you into Voyager as well? I'm enjoying that more at the moment. I've seen them all before mostly but they are still my favorite (and almost only) TV shows (only have free TV here, no cable). The one from today about Data was a good early episode. He's my favorite character in Next Gen. Hope you enjoy when you get to it.

Hi @Mazarita Good to 'see' you. It's the same for me as what you describe re socializing. I didn't even have a 50th birthday party, just lunch with a friend and their daughter. But this year was much better, hearing from a lot more people and going out for a beautiful dinner with my man.

That sounds really positive @plasmo.

@plasmo, it has been getting easier for me too lately from doing more of it. Spent years locking myself in my flat almost completely before last year, but been slowly stretching the envelope on a lot of things, socialising included, since then.

@eth, great to know things are on the improve with you too, with socialising and with other things.

@Former-Member, actually it was a bit of a rough day. I wrote about it a bit earlier. Before that I drafted a long, miserable post about it but decided against posting it as I thought it would be too depressing to read. Glad I made that choice because I feel better now. Actually I often feel better in the middle of the night.

@Former-Member I had a little over 2 hours sleep so far. Will go back to bed in a little while.

I have to push myself to get out too. What with social anxiety and PTSD some days I just don't want to put myself out there. But this week I got out of the house 5 days out of 6 so far. Tomorrow will be an at home day but my mate is coming for dinner.