Night Shift

Yep, still here, @eth. I like your new poem, especially the title and central concept. So good to see you getting creative again.

Yeah, me ... 😊

Hya both of you. Sorry to hear you've got the creeps again @Mazarita. And that your daughter's troubled again tonight @Faith-and-Hope.

I got another 1 1/2 hrs sleep ... this is getting to be a real drag. Thank goodness for these forums and having some company in the wee hours.

I think the simple companionship between us all is one of the greatest things about the forum, @eth. I just hope we don't contribute too much to each other's sleeplessness with the scintillating company in these wee hours! It was a wonderful round table we had last night with you, @Faith-and-Hope and @Former-Member. And tonight we have @Former-Member still around too I think. 🙂

@Mazarita I don't think it's too stimulating as I often wake with what I call a 'jump start' and it's nice to then realize there is something positive to take my mind off it. And often the time here at night will help me wind down again. The times I've found the forums too stimulating have only been 2 situations where someone was seeming to be really in dire need and at risk of harm or worse. And I have learned from those situations to have my boundaries about how involved I get and even set a time limit.

For @Former-Member

Good to hear, @eth. I guess that 'jump start' you mention is hypervigilance. Not a nice thing to be alone with in the middle of the night. I'm still having disturbing dreams. Not as vivid as they were when I was down south but enough to have me waking up feeling troubled. I'm also talking in my sleep and waking myself up with it, sometimes sounds like someone is talking to me, which scares me a little in that disoriented state of waking. I took a muscle relaxant tonight as I was feeling hyper at bedtime, but it only worked to get me to sleep and not keep me there.

I can relate to the last part of your comment @Mazarita as my sleeping tablet is not working tonight either. Are you coping ok with the dreams?

Is that picture one of yours @Faith-and-Hope? It's lovely.

@eth, I cope with pretty much everything these days. Used to feel very desperate about things a lot of the time when I was working but 'retirement' has given me the space to manage and roll with my various states of being much better most of the time. The dreams are disturbing though. During one sleep today I had an agitated dream about my parents. I was talking about them here last night, as I have before on the forum, and I often afterwards feel guilty speaking of them in a negative light. They had very big issues to deal with themselves and most of the time I feel great compassion for the struggles of both of their lives. I'm also talking through some of my father issues with my psychiatrist at the moment and that is bringing a few things to the surface. Not the easiest process really, though hopefully helpful in the long run.

No, it's an adapted one. I haven't been in the right headspace to draw or paint lately, so I'm messing with some found images I am importing into a drawing ap on my iPad. Ts not very sophisticated, but it just goes to show how beautiful the found images are. I can't take much credit 😏 but art is one of the aesthetic "languages". I hope you find it a nice distraction. I am 😊

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