Hi Tawney. Pleased to meet you ! No, you didn't put me to sleep.
I am so sorry to hear about your daughter. I can't imagine how hard that must be, and you are coping so well. Yes, I imagine you would be happy to have the problem of her waking you up thru the night, so gladly. I am grateful that the issue I have is so small in comparison.
Having lost my mum, I hear you about the comfort of feeling that they are around you. I have a particular connection with sunflowers. When my mum was sick in hospital, we had her outside on a day bed one day. The empty block behind the hospital was full of sunflowers. The kids were still small. She asked them to go and pick some of the sunflowers for her. When they brought them back, we made giant daisy chains with them, which is something she had taught me to do as a child.
In the weeks after she passed, I kept coming across sunflowers unexpectedly, for weeks. There was a single one growing opposite the funeral home. Then I found a tiny vase of ornamental sunflowers in a gift shop right next to the cash register when I went to pay for something. I bought hem and they sit in my kitchen. Then the next week my MIL bought me a big bunch of sunflowers - not something she would choose ordinarily, and she had no idea of the connection ! It was my mum's birthday on the weekend. I walked into a friend's house for the first time yesterday, and she had a sunflower clock on the wall. It keeps happening.
I'm glad you found so much info to put your mind at ease re selling the house. It is a big job, but you will get thru it step by step. My husband was a workaholic, and I had a houseful of young kids - 5 under 10 years. I got really good at breaking things down into the tiniest pieces, if that's all I could muster the energy for. My. Mum used to tell me that if you can wash the dishes and make the beds every day, at least the house will feel and look presentable, even if there were kids toys and washing everywhere. A few touches of housekeeping shows as effort enough, and it's as much for you as anyone else.
One step at a time is a favourite mantra for me. I helps to keep focussed on living in the moment too 🌺
