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Night Shift

Night Shift

Since I am awake at 4am I thought I'd start this thread for those of us who have trouble sleeping and might find it helpful to have a place to go to chat. Whatever gets you through the night is alright.

To get the ball rolling, I'll just say that I enjoyed being part of the Topic Tuesday discussion tonight. I wish it was possible for these events to be weekly rather than monthly. Either way, thanks SANE and all the people I've met on here over recent months.

Edited June 2016 and February 2017: Night Shift is now open 24 hours a day. To join in, just click through to the last page of the thread at the top right of this post to get to the latest message.

Edited April 2017 and June 2017: For the sake of better communications between members here, I am adding that this thread is meant to be a caring, kind and gentle place of sharing. Humour is welcome, as long as its not unkindly directed towards other members. Hope your time in this chat thread is rewarding.

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Hi @Former-Member...

Big HUGS ❤️

I have been depressed for 24 years - I so understand! Also anxious for as long as I remember - PTSD since 2003 - schizophrenia since 2003 - I actually had a friend tell me about a week ago that I needed to take responsibility for my life & not worry about what other people think instead of calling it paranoia & blaming schizophrenia - I was going to catch up with her tomorrow when I travel to Brisbane to see my psychiatrist, but didn't feel like making an effort after those ignorant comments (and she has bulimia & related depression & anxiety, but I never have said "all you need to do is stop throwing up" - I've had anorexia & been diagnosed with EDNOS also....) I really find it shocking that your "friend" said you weren't making an effort - even though I'm used to losing friends mainly due to y suicidality & attempts & psychotic episodes.... It just sounds like you were doing so much & doing so well to keep it together. I don't achieve what I want to at the moment either - I would love to be studying to be a mental health professional - I have done part of a psychology degree & would love to go back to it or social work.... I'm trying to reduce medications at the moment, so I can study & live with more clarity... Sorry, I'm rambling - I just wanted you to know you are not alone even when you feel alone - & yes, it is nice to be physically alone at times too...

Pizza was a homemade base with tomatoes, asparagus, basil, onion & a pesto made with fresh basil, butter beans, smoked garlic & organic apple cider vinegar - yum!

Hope the pilates helps you sleep well (I've been going to pilates sometimes at my yoga studio just to mix it up a bit lately)

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

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Thanks @Former-Member 💕 hugs back to you.
You're not rambling. I find it a privilege when people share their stories with me. 😊

Oh, you have struggled for a long time too, sorry to hear. I guess mine started when I was a young teenager. That's when I was first attacked.

That's awful your friend said that. xo
People can be so cruel. I've had alot of friends say hurtful things. They have no idea what it's like.
At present I don't see any friends, haven't for a while, too stressful. Hoping to get on top enough to make new friends. Maybe that could be a new year's resolution for me. 😀

I hope you feel well enough some time soon so you can finish your degree or similar.
I understand how frustrating it is not being able to do what you want to do.

@Former-Member I know what you mean about going blank in an exam. I'd be the same.
I hope you do well.

Lovely chatting, but I bettet try and sleep.

Nighty night. Chat again soon. Sleep well.
😴😙💕

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Hi @Former-Member

I battled through the firsts ep of The Wrong Girl and thought "what a loser" and gave up - maybe I should have given her more time but if the producers want people to watch they don't start down in the pits

I hope she got the right guy - maybe the right guy wasn't in this season - let's wait and see

My mother used to watch the Bold and the Beautiful and I called it the Old and Made Over - couldn't get into it at all - never mind - not every one likes docos

I really enjoy Voyager - so like Chakotay - I think we girls are meant too - such a nice guy

Maybe I will get around to seeing all the episodes they missed - maybe they will bring the Original Star Trek back after this - they did one season - oh boy Star Trek every week day

Anyway - I really do have to go to bed

tzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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Thank you @Former-Member, @Kurra

just feels older sometimes xx

hope you have a good day

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Hi @Decadian....

They kind of leave it 'up in the air' who her right guy will be.... it ends with her about to go away with Jack (chef) & Pete (best friend) telling her just before she goes that he is "in love with" her, haha... - it is based on a book, so there will probably be a 2nd season - I might even read the novel before the next season!

I also enjoy documentaries - mainly about health, animal welfare & the environment - Forks Over Knifes, Earthlings, Before the Flood, Food Inc - just watched Food Choices yesterday afternoon. I also sometimes like to watch nature docos, but not particularly to listen - just to see the beauty of nature in other parts of the world, as I can't afford to travel & have not travelled as an adult - like the other day there was a doco on about the wildlife along Ireland's rivers - some beautiful ducks - & their ducklings, so cute! - otters etc. & the sunsets - it kind of relaxed me a little....

My favorite character in Voyager is definitely Seven of Nine - I like them all, except B'Elanna can be a bit annoying.... I'm not sure why I think so... I also really like that the captain is female. The doctor is awesome! Video shops are dying off sadly - our "local" one (20 minutes away) closed down in 2015 - ony have a kiosk, which means you can ony rent new - newish releases..... It was so great hiring all of Voyager & when my partner started to watch it - I would be chatting on my computer for a few seasons - I used to chat in a schizophrenia chatroom, but stopped in 2014 - but eventually - I really got into it!! It is great how it is on TV at the moment, but 5pm is usually when I have my shower - because I live in a bit of stressful, unusual living situation that I have described here before....

Anyhow....

@Former-Member Thank you I'll probably catch up with my friend eventually - It just feels too raw at the moment & I think I would have to pretend to be more okay than I am - I find her approach to me when I tell her I am struggling a bit too - 'power of positive thinking' - which does not work for me - I read lots of self help books when my mental illness became debilitating when I was 21 in 2003.... I met her at a running group I went to in 2014 in Brisbane - we moved away from Brisbane late 2014 to the country - I still had about 20 + people from the running group on my Facebook - at the start of this year I deleted about half - I just deleted 3 again recently because they tagged/or I realised might be too close to a woman who really traumatised me who is in that group - she was actually my personal trainer for about a year too - that is another long story! So I only have about 9 or so people left from that running group & I feel I'm letting them down by not running at the moment - they will rarely like my yoga posts & some of them only seem to like a post when it is about running! - including my friend I still catch up with from time to time! That running group was really good for me when I was in it, but when I left due to moving I realised I had become fixated on personal bests, average speed, distance ran etc & wasn't just running for the joy of running - running fro the feeling of freedom like I used to - I have tried to work on it & will continue to when I'm not so stressed & paranoid - I have another dental surgery next week - so my new years intention will be to try to get back into running (but still practise yoga a lot!) Good luck with your resolution - making friendships is really difficult - especially when you have lost so many due to mental ill health - I hope I can make some more true, genuine, lasting friendships one day - I am friendly with a few regulars at my yoga studio - I am lucking I have my partner of 13 years, who is my best friend....

I hope everyone had a good sleep - I struggled to doze off, but got there sometime after 12am - I feel a bit tired still, but I'll be okay - off to Brisbane later...

Hope everyone has an 'okayish' to good to great day!

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

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I hope your day is going well @Former-Member

I understand the "raw" feeling and needing to be on top to pretend. Sometimes that's too hard. I'm waiting to feel on top to pretend too (before I try to be friends with anyone, in the "real" world).

You must be fit if you are a runner, even though you aren't running at the moment. I hope you start to feel well enough soon, so that you can start running again.

I used to do yoga/pilates classes, but they made it that you had to join the gym to go to them. I'm not good with commitment at the moment. The classes were good, because you could pay weekly. Now I just do it at home.

Oh no, more dental surgery. What are you having done?

Sorry to hear that you were traumatised by your personal trainer. That's terrible. People/friends can be so hurtful. Hugs to you. xo

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Hi @Former-Member

Thanks for your message

Btw it was good to hear from you.

I hope I sleep better too.

What have you been up to today?

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How was your day @Shaz51 and @Former-Member? 💜

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Has your day gone well @Decadian? ❤

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Hi @Former-Member

My day has been good so far.

I'm thinking of going to the gym.

What have you been up to today?

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