Night Shift

Hi again @Shaz51

Good luck with your appointment in Dec.

@Former-Member You seem to have a day nice- at least you got out and about for a while

I'm still feeling tired though.

I was so lucky I didn't sleep in this morning, I think I slept through my alarm.

What are up to tomorrow?

Hi @Former-Member

You are right - depression does take pleasure away from life - it is just one hard thing after another

I am glad The Wrong Girl is just about finished - now that's a real downer for a programme - I guess I did something else while that was one - I watched the first episode I think

So what do I like? I like watching docos and Star Trek - I am really sorry I did not watch the early episodes of Voyager - I am enjoying what I think is the last season - I hope they put it back on again - it's so good

I hope you feel better soon - and that there is something that will grasp your interest

It's the pits when nothing is interesting

Decadian

I can relate generally just do the same things too- which is not much anyway @Former-Member. I think depression sucks, I honestly don't think you understand it proprely unless you have been through it. I don't watch much TV at all, its on atm but I am in my room on the laptop.

I am bit worried because we have an exam next week for our training and I tend to go blank now when doing anything stressful like an exam- I'll just have to relax.

Hey @Former-Member & @Decadian - I loved The Wrong Girl 🙂 I found the first episode a bit silly, but persevered (haha...) & I really enjoyed it. I also love Voyager - we hired them all out in 2013 - before that I hadn't watched star trek - I can't really get into any other other star trek's except the recent movies... I understand @Former-Member - I find it hard to enjoy things that I know I enjoy a lot - in waves... anhedonia.

No I haven't read Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus - I think it's just a paranoia issue... "just" haha

Pizza was absolutely delish! Vegan of course 🙂

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

Hi @Decadian Have you been ok? Yes, depression is awful, have struggled with it most of my life.

I started watching The Wrong Girl, because my daughter was watching it. I quite enjoyed it, last episode already.

Your pizza sounds very yummy @Former-Member

I sometimes put the TV on when I'm on my own, just so I don't feel alone, I do quite enjoy my time alone though @Former-Member

It's funny, because I was embarassed to say that I find it hard to enjoy anything because of depression. It is nice to have someone understand. I have been so judged by friends/people because of it. It's not like I choose to have it. I would much rather be out and about enjoying myself. I am not as bad as I used to be, but I'm not achieving what I would like to, that's for sure.

Years ago when I was working full time, going out at night during the week and out on the weekends, babysitting and cleaning for family, my friend said to me that, I wasn't making enough effort.

After I had worked an 8 hour day, I drove half an hour in the bush to have dinner at her place. I found that very stressful, driving out there on my own. Plus having to go to work the next day, was too much for me. So the next time she invited me for dinner, I had to politely say, no, sorry I can't. It was nice of her to invite me, but I just wasn't coping. It really hurt deeply that she said that I wasn't making enough effort. Oh my gosh! I had PTSD, depression and anxiety, working full time, plus all the other things and she said that. So that was one of many reasons I had to step away from my friendships. Absolutely no understanding or compassion at all. So, it is lovely that you all understand. I don't need to feel embarassed to say that I struggle with depression. I don't choose to have it, who would?

Anyway, sorry about that rave.

Just doing a bit of pilates/exercise before I shower and go to bed.