Night Shift

@Former-Member, @Faith-and-Hope, @utopia

the problem is with my boxes they are still sitting randomly in the middle of the floor😬😳. I have the rest of the house mostly sorted but my room is a huge mess. Mostly it's been a merry go round of not having furniture in my room because I'm supposed to be peeling the wall paper off and painting so that I can lay the laminate flooring which has been purchased. We ripped up the carpet because it stank when we bought the house. I think I need some @Former-Member 💪grit and determination to get into the renovation part. maybe a miracle will happen and I'll get to some of it this week. I found our birth certificates though. Hooray 😁

Thinking of ya @Faith-and-Hope with your upcoming week.

I hope you get to sort some of what you need in your next appointment @Former-Member. I'm needing mine tomorrow as my head is spinning with stuff AGAIN.

Thanks @Former-Member

Ah - TS knows little of the damage she causes to other people - she seems to have set herself up as a righteous being - but I have long since stopped caring what she does to me - and I am sure she would not want the larger family to know what she is like

btw - both my uncles know - they have both been very supportive to me - and letting me know not only that they care for me but both of them have given me family history which has been helpful - I have always felt more of my father's child and part of my father's family than much to do with my mother and TS

However hours later I am still wondering why she had to get my dd to tell me the bad news - surely she could have done that herself - whatever has gone on between TS and myself has not be generated by myself - although I have defended myself on some occasions - I am better at letting someone have the last word - a very powerful action - it must be incredibly frustrating to get that

Ah families - and who could be without one -

Tomorrow I have to find myself a Grief Councellor - and I have 4 medicare visits left for this year - it might be hard to find one in time - but first thing I will be looking for one on the internet and letting people know it's urgent - it's about my mother - amazing how so much stuff from her came up - and some could only be remembered after my mother died

Also I am thinking my other uncle is terribly frail as well - I hope I can see them before he leaves us - I don't know if he will be able to get here from interstate

So the support I have had from the Forum Family tonight has been fantastic - really wonderful - so many people care and so many people have said thoughtful and caring things - I was in such a mess when I rang Life Line - and I was wondering what I could do because I practise coping stuff everyday - but yes - after posting in the website so many people responded - I feel okay and will be going to bed soon

Thanks @Former-Member

Dec

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Yay ... you found the birth certificates @Former-Member ❣

Can you have a Decorate My Room party ? Will the kids put in a day with you to get the wallpaper off the wall .... pizza thrown in, music on ? And then a painting party sometime soon ? And then a floor-laying party ?

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Goodnight @Former-Member .... 💕

Hope you're feeling better soon .....

Goodnight @Decadian .... 💕

I hope you can rest well tonight despite how you are feeling ....

Hugs 💗🌷

Thanks @Kurra, @Faith-and-Hope

@Kurra yes it did report it stolen to the embassy. It will be a bit of a lengthy process but it's not urgent that he needs it thank goodness, it will just ground him for a bit. It was cool to read you had a great practice today sounds like it was fun. When are you back at work again?

Im not great at asking for help @Faith-and-Hope It does sound like a good idea but I've now hit the wrong time of year. Everyone is flat out even if I did find the guts to ask for help. I struggled last night to accept a lift home as it was out of their way let alone anything else.

Yell out if you need distracting or anything that we can do online too to help ease the stress @Faith-and-Hope

Thanks @Former-Member .... 😊

You'll probably work it out cos I tend to go a bit stir-crazy ..... 😜😀

Sitting on my bed with D3 whike she works at the mo, working on my beading ....

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope

Those were good ideas - I used some of them - eg - the hand cream - and I watched several episodes of a TV series I have on DVD

I also sent a private Facebook message to my cousin telling her some memories I have of her mother - and the evening as passed quietly. Snugly got onto my lap for a long time and I slept for a short while - it was a refreshing power nap

Tomorrow I have a bunch of things to attend to - one being to send some flowers to my cousin - we are friends - all my other cousins are male - I know all of them and get on well with them - also I think I will send some to my other aunt and uncle interstate - my aunt in Tassie thinks people don't send flowers anymore - I said I don't care what other people do or don't do - I think sending flowers is wonderful - and I think that and looking for a grief councellor will be useful things -

Ah - also I found the postal vote for the local government - and I had to hunt for the ballot paper - so I have to post that

Time will pass and the sorrow for my aunt dying and also the sorrow for the rest of my family will pass - I believe we should not just commemorate the life of those who have died but also grieve - and weep - as is right for us, I think it would be terrible if no one grieved for someone, shed no tears, spent no time feeling horribly uncomfortable about it. No one caring

They say the dead wouldn't want us to cry for them - well - the dead cannot tell us but I am sure it would be terrible

So for the short time it is appropriate - I shall weep for those who pass - I always shall

Decadian