Night Shift

Last night an old friend got in contact with me and asked if Id like to catch up with her now that Ive moved home. I was quite surprised and said that yes Id love to. We are going out for dinner tonight and I am beyond anxious. I havent been able to focus on anything, my heart feels like its going a million miles an hour, I feel like Im going to vomit etc etc. No real point to this post I am just so frustrated that no matter what I do I always feel like this!

Dear @Billamba

I know how you feel......Im going through it myself....... Im so anxi0us and I know I can resolve this myself but I'm tired and stressed.

Does this feel like what your going through?

What is happening with you is just something that you are used to feeling but maybe not acknowledging it.......

There is this ......feeling that you can acknowledge and honey you can get through it....you have been through a terrible time with the move and now you have resolved it but maybe your feelings need space to feel anxious still.

Does this ring true for you??

Hi @Billamba,

How wonderful that you will be meeting up with an old friend. I'm sorry that you are feeling this anxiety in anticipation of the event though. It is frustrating to me too when I experience anxiety around events I am otherwise looking forward to. As @PeppiPatty has suggested, I think it may be at least partly due to the big change in living circumstances happening for you lately. I think changing where you live is one of the most stressful things you can do and can take a while to process.

Are there any techniques that help you with your anxiety, like deep breathing exercises? I do these a fair bit at any time of the day or night to help manage my anxiety. I find that even just sitting in a chair and bringing the mind to the breath helps relax my body and nerves when feeling overstimulated. If you are anything like me, once you are at the dinner, nervousness will likely diminish. Meantime, my suggestion is to take it as easy as possible this afternoon in preparation. Looking forward to hearing how it goes afterwards.

Thank you @PeppiPatty

Yes what you are saying does ring true at times. I do just need to 'ride' some of these feelings out, aknowledge them but dont let them rule me I suppose. Im just so over everything and I am so freaking done.

I was supposed to start some casual work last week. 3 days a week. A sense of purpose. Its been postponed to this coming Monday. My employers cant help why it was postponed and thats okay. I was just so holding onto it as a lifeline - a sense of purpose, sense of selfworth. Im running out of money quickly too which is just increasing constant feelings of anxiety and depression. Some days I can block it out. Those are the days I do nothing really...

I want to message my friend and say Im sick or something and cant go tonight. I know I shouldnt so Im trying so hard not to.

How are you @PeppiPatty?

Hi everyone....

Thanks to all who replied yesterday @Mazarita, @Former-Member, @Billamba, @NikNik (I can't remember everyone who replied!).... I sent an sms to my sister & she called me. (She called me again today). I shut down my computer last night & just watched Offspring. I only saw all the replies when I quickly checked my phone before crashing to sleep. I'm feeling pretty low & depressed again tonight, so I'm just going to close my laptop now - it can be too much stimulation for me at times. Its been too hot to do much today, but I did go to hot yoga (ironically) & did some laundry. I see I've missed a few pages of conversation - sorry, but I'm not up to catching up at the moment. @Billamba hope the catch up with your friend is enjoyable & the anxiety eases.

Sorry I haven't written this well - yeah, I'm anxious too.

Namaste,

Anna