Night Shift

Good luck for tomorrow @Former-Member, a 7:00am start would scare me😱 I know what you mean about getting up and turning everything off except our brain turns back on and we don't sleep. Last night I slept with my light on because I knew once I was up that would be it. I really hope you sleep tonight.

Ive just had a busy day at home doing things and trying to keep the troupes fed and watered as they were gyprocking the walls today. I was doing @Faith-and-Hope running raids to get through the day with out anxiety taking over and me crashing with a house full of people. I survived looking quite normal but definitely having to work at it to keep up that appearance. Feeling wrecked now but pleased that's over. A few more big days ahead. Tomorrow I start the mindfulness class and have to front up to the people I was humiliated in front of last week. Will definately need my big girl pants on for that. Have to head out in the rain soon to pick my son up. I hope tomorrow is a good day💜😊

Hi @Former-Member 😊

I took a long walk around the bridges this morning with D1 .... still issues in the lead-up to the wedding to be sorted out ... but they will get there .... sorting out differences in ideas can be a painful part of relationships, but y'gotta work it out .... so many more difficulties ahead in life that you have to face up to together if you're gonna make it for the long term ...

The rest of the day has been slow ... totally unmotivated but have to keep moving forward anyway, so ran raids on the housekeeping a bit .... but mostly caught up on emails and stuff that can be organised online.

Went shopping for some gifts, then had a foot massage ... WH coming home tonight and I'm feeling a bit flat .... watching TV to distract .... knitting .... starting to feel sleepy .... 😏

Hope you sleep well. All the best for your appointment tomorrow .... ❣

Hi @Former-Member

I watch a lot of educational TV - and SBS is running a lot of docos atm and I have found I get very excited learning about history and I think my pleasure in what I am learning is helping my chronic pain syndrome

But last night's doco through me back into the past - and yet - I think I learned something even though I turned it off - it was nothing to do with the programme - it was from my early memories for I was born just long enough before Hiroshima to remember the word and knew my mother had no way of protecting us - and I did not want to remember that last night - but as we do constantly evolve - I am happy enough to remember it today

After all - we are all part of the evolution of society

I still have to learn so much about MI - I don't know what disassociation is - I have the opposite tendency I tend to associate I think - find myself in ideas and find ideas in myself - gee - it's getting too late to think such profound thoughts

But this isn't bad - just uncomfortable - the weather started beautifully today - and I went out for a walk and rang my dd - my cat has been horrible today - scratching the furniture and I admit I felt uneasy - and I think as the weather closed in and it got dark I had feelings of presentiment - the barometric pressure changed suddenly and we are in for more winter - ah dear - I do not like winter

But I feel okay today - I had a sleep - watching TV - so it will be a will before I sleep tonight -

And I am getting my hair cut tomorrow - that's good - I need a hair cut badly and I only postponed it a week

Decadian

Hi @Former-Member 😊

I hope tomorrow is a good day for you too ...

Take courage .... you know the mindfulness class will be good for you in terms of content .... I hope the others have enough humility about themselves to recognise your bravery in stepping back up to what you need ...

You go girl ❣

Glad you're getting through things and feeling achievement .... your house will be done fairly soon, right ?

That's another task sorted.

Spent so many years having my house extended, renovated, repaired, with us living inside it .... can relate to wanting to lock the workmen out ... but that's counterproductive even if the thought is attractive .... 😏

Hope you get some good rest tonight ...

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Thanks @Faith-and-Hope for your encouragement. It will hopefully be ok tomorrow but I am nervous. My workmen were just family, my uncle, father and sons but I stressed so much. There were a whole heap of dynamics that could have gone wrong today. I imagine I'll hear about it from someone later as to what I should have done better to look after them. I hope your day goes smoothly tomorrow. It sounds like you still have a whole heap of dynamics to sort through too. Take care, thinking of you 💜😊

@Former-MemberIt is good you had help and I imagine it was also good for the help to do it ...

Like @Faith-and-Hope we did a very slow renovation when kids were little. Mostly we just did it ourselves, but I did have a couple of group events.

@Former-Member I really like your train metaphors. We have regular freights through our station .. my head can get like that too ..

one day you might also be able to harness all that energy in a creative way.

Thanks @Former-Member ....

It's usual to feel nervous ... so keep busy .... little time to think .... and just 'do' .... one foot in front of another till you look up and it's done ....

You'll be grand ❣ (said with a bit 'o a lilt ... 😏)

Wear a lucky clip, or pin, or ring, or something ....

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I'm trying Melatonin at the moment too @Former-Member. I don't think it does anything for me either. I don't think I'll buy anymore. I think the Magnesium powder is better, but sometimes nothing helps. I hope you sleep ok tonight and your baby. When my girl was little, she woke approx every half an hour, so not much sleep for years for me. I was so uptight back then, no wonder she didn't settle.

Fancy dress party sounds like alot of fun @Faith-and-Hope. Will it be at your place? I understand about the natural things not helping that much. Sometimes they're just not strong enough. Especially with "monthlies". They help my girl, but I needed something alot stronger.

That will be nice for you to get your haircut tomorrow @Decadian. Makes us feel better. Did you end up getting a new computer the other day?

All the best for tomorrow @Former-Member and @Former-Member, I hope you won't be too tired getting up at 7am.

I hate getting up early, I've never been a "morning person", but I have to get my girl off to school.

Hello to anyone else on here tonight, I might have missed someone. Oh, that's right, hello to @Appleblossom. How are you?

I watched a good movie tonight. 28 Days, with Sandra Bullock. She was in re-hab, some parts were sad, but the ending was good. She conquered her addiction. I like a good ending.

Sleeptime for me. Just started raining. Goodnight everyone, sleep well.

You too @Former-Member ... sleep well ...

I'm starting to doze off, so will say goodnight to everyone ...

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