Night Shift

Thankyou for thinking of me @Decadian @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Former-Member @Former-Member You are all so kind and I appreciate you all being there. Love to you all

I am trying to be positive today, I am tired from crying. I just did the school drop off, made another coffee and toast and I am in bed and am going to have a sleep. A nap is good. Restores the nervous system.

It's a lovely sunny day today and I will enjoy it later, sleep is a necessity at the moment, hehe! Planning to go to the beach after school to take photos. I still haven't learnt how to post photos on here, but I will. I know how to on facebook, so I am sure I will learn.

So sorry to hear that you were so sad last night @Decadian, But glad you were able to phone Lifeline. I understand about "carrying people's burdens", it is very tiring. I used to do the same, but somehow I have learnt not to. Especially with my mum, dad etc. I really can't explain how I stopped being a "burden bearer" (well, mostly). But it certainly is a relief not to. I hope that you will be able to heal inside @Decadian.

How is everyone today? Look forward to chatting later. I must sleep now, but really wanted to "thankyou" all for thinking of me.

Oh, by the way @Former-Member. Regarding the other day. Probably not a good idea to take meds for sleep while BFing. As you probably already know. I didn't realize that you had a baby, no wonder you get extra tired. How are you going? I hope that you are ok.

@Decadian Love the cat photo. Is it your cat? Very cute.

Hi @Former-Member

Yes - that's my cat - the Electric Cat - which she was young she would charge around the place and outside as well - and attack any other cat regardless of the size - and she doesn't know she is a small cat

I have come a long way with a psychotherapist - and I am tired of the memories that seem to be a bit like the artesian basin under the Nullabor - and they return - I guess they always will - and I have stopped carrying my mother's grudges - or rather - worrying about them - she liked them - I don't

But those memories - darn it - I have a good memory - and when I worked on a Help Line I had a "Forgetory" - I can only remember a couple of those conversations - but with my own life - "I've Got Scars" -

It took ages to get ready for bed last night and I still have the dishes in the sink because I forgot to get an electrician to change the globe for me - the council does this - sigh - I forgot a lot of stuff yesterday bit life does go on - it goes on and on and on - and here or there we sometimes find some vinidication - aw - it's not early but too early for such intense introspection

So sleep now and get to the beach later - sounds like a good plan - I am not that far from the beach but I have to walk - so not today - and sleep is better for you right now

And it seems to me that people care a lot about the other people here and this is wonderful -

Sleep well for now and enjoy the sun when you can

Decadian

That is great @Former-Member, that you slept well last night, makes such a difference. Did you do anything different to be able to sleep well? I hope it continues. Does your baby sleep well at night?

I've had cats that were hyper @Decadian hehe! I used to have alot of fun with them. I used to play hide and seek and drag the mat around, with the cat on it. Sometimes the cat would fall off the mat and jump back on it for more. haha! The cat I have now is older and lazy, but she's adorable, very fluffy.

Yes, memories are hard to get rid of, but usually in time the memories are less hurtful, I hope that is so with you. @Decadian. The wounds eventually heal and become scars, which hopefully won't hurt as much. I try not to think about hurtful memories. But then they come in my dreams. I slept for an hour before and woke with an awful dream. Thankfully the bad dreams have lessened as well. The saying "time heals", is often true, but it helps to have support and professional help when needed. We all need support and encouragement.

Hello @james_biss. Are you new on here. I haven't met you before. Nice to meet you.

I just had some sheperds pie for lunch, which I made last night. I went shopping at one of our big shopping centres last night, while my daughter was at university. Only bought some drinking glasses. By the time we got home it was nearly 6.30pm. I don't normally start cooking things like sheperds pie at that time of the night, but I'm glad I did. Didn't take that long actually.

Time to get the washing on the line and get the chores done. It's warm here today. I wish winter would be longer and colder. I love it, mind you, it doesn't get very cold here.

Did your daughter get off to school easier today @Faith-and-Hope?

How's your day @Shaz51, @Former-Member, @Former-Member and everyone?

Hi @Former-Member

I used to love Shepherds Pie - but we called it Potato Pie - and my mother used to have a mincer that she screwed onto the edge of the table and minced cold lamb by hand - I inherited that when I was a young wife and the table still has those screw marks underneath the edge - and that table as well as the mincer were my mother's

Yes - the memories do ease - but for some reason they flooded back - but I thought and thought before I finally rang Life LIne - I watch a lot of docos - I love them - major interest - but the one I started to watch last night got to me in a bad way - not looking at that one again - there are some things in history I really enjoy - many things are interesting - but not the doco that was on last night - set me off big time

Time does heal - but sometimes an abscess has to be lanced - and I had a couple of these at the same time many years ago - eventually they were lanced and went away - never came back - so memories -

They are different - they need to be examined often I guess because they are deep and awful at times - and I hate it for you that your had a dream like that - our dreams are what we have in our unconscious mind - and the will come up through the layers of our thoughts that we have control over during waking life and dreams are strange

They are not straight forward - I have done some dream interpretation - something I learned at university - not taught there but we can gain so much more than what is taught. And dreams are inside out and upside down and back to front and it can be a muddle - but when we are ready we can find the truth - I believe so anyway

And yes - we all need support and encouragement - as for the scars - age does not weary them - they are vital until we either find our way to our eventual home - and it is what we do with our scars that has a big role in defining us

Aw - it is still too early to be thinking so deeply -

I am glad you made that Sheperds Pie too - but tell me - do you cook mince meat or do you mince cold meat yourself?

Decadian