Night Shift

Hi @Former-Member. I'm so very sorry you've had to walk alone through the really tough times in your life. Im also sad that your dad was gone too soon too. I totally get the refusing to get hurt and worry about trusting and it all biting back at you anyway, usually when we least expect it. I don't know how I'll ever trust anyone again. I only have two people I trust, one is my therapist and the other is my best friend (31 years of close friendship). I guess I'm lucky to have that We have shared a lot including having 7 boys between us aged from 15- 21. Other than that it feels a lot like ground hog day where you try to make it work but there is always something that messes up. Sorry this wasn't meant to be about me. I just wanted to say keep working on you, you are so important and I hope that you get the support you deserve. It's such a hard road with so many complexities going on in your life. Hang in there, sending hugs and best wishes 💜😊

Hi @Former-Member. I've been thinking of you and wondering how it went yesterday saying goodbye to your brother. I hope you're ok and that you've got a walk in and the weather is nice. Sending hugs and best wishes to you too😊💜

Hi @Decadian. I'm glad you are feeling better and hope you got your computer today. I'm excited for you😊 💜


After reading so many posts on the forum there is such a common thread about families doing more harm than good in providing love and security. I'm thinking of all of you that have endured really difficult family relationships and sending you hugs. 💜💜💜💐💐💐
Mine is also dysfunctional but in a very different way, maybe at the opposite end of the spectrum but with some similarities to regarding nurturance. I've had a weird and often contradictory upbringing.

Also just saying hi to everyone who is around 👋💜😊🤗

@Faith-and-Hope I hope your time eases with all your current complexities going on too. I think many of us (definately me) sometimes take you being a rock for granted. I know things have been super stressed in the last few weeks and I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you too and I'm sorry if I haven't been there much for you when you've needed to unload some of your stuff for a change. I really, really hope that all the things you are juggling at the moment come to fruition without more stress and with more joy. Sending hugs and best wishes to you too. 💜💜💜💐💐💐

Oops @Faith-and-Hope that first sentence doesn't make sense. I hope you can work out what I meant 😀

Thanks @Former-Member. No not at all. It really helps hearing your story too. I feel like we sort of click in that way. Similar parallels. I was so lucky to get into psychologist tomorrow, so I plan to bring it all up...I think I really stir myself up into paranoia. Some of it was with good reason the rest I was escalating it up, & up & up...I've done it for so long, it's me. But like you say the keep messing up bit I'm so Damm frustrated with. The hurts are so real, unbearable..err well I've got bath duties to tend! I'm so happy, your coffee, cake sesh made me smile too...whilst in the thick of some pretty crap thought! 💛❤😊☕

@Former-Member, think everyone's having tea or something. You sound energised I'm glad. Its good. Have you had dinner?. I just had grilled chicken tomatoes cheeze on toast & tea. My dog is snuggles beside me. Watching a library hire DVD 'Gilligan's Island' - was raiaws on these shows, haven't seen it for years, pretty funny. What you doing?