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@Leah12I suffer from anxiety, depressions and PTSD. Unfortunately it is not a quick fix. I hope you find some like minded people on here, I am sure that you will. Shop around for a counsellor that is the best fit for you, bit like try before you buy. Hopefully you will find one that is right for you. I am lucky that I have found a psych that "gets me" extrememly well and can make sense of all the stuff I tell him every week! So don't give up on that front.

Sorry to hear about your mother, are you a carer for her? I looked after my father for 6 years with a terminal illness so understand what you are going through. It sounds like you have an enormous amount placed on your shoulders at the moment. What support are you getting?

@Leah12that first paragraph could have been my writing. Beside my psych and my hubby (well he knows some but not all) I havent told anyone. Don't want to burden my friends with my problems. Also the guilt and shame and embarassment of having a mental illness stops me from telling people.

It is hard to watch someone you love go downhill. My father went from strong man to sitting in a chair on oxygen 24 hrs a day. It is super hard and my heart goes out to you.

I listen to alot of music but alot of classical or music with no words. I find alot of music (and tv) are triggers for my anxiety so limit what I am exposed too.

Wow, graduate in 6 weeks, that is exciting. Well done!

@Leah12that is the good thing about this forum, you are never alone. There are lots of people dealing with a lot on here, but the support is there if you want it. I actually find it a bit like therapy. Even though I am going through a lot myself, to be able to hellp and support someone else feels super good and you will find a lot of people feel the same way.

a quick hello, @Former-Member @Leah12

Just out of bed for a few minutes-teeth grinding so bad my jaw so painful tonight-to get pain relief and have a decaf.

I can sooo relate to keeping the CSA hidden for so many years and relying on meds to get by. I don't really have friends so have kept everything inside until the last couple of years. I cared for my father/ one of the perps ***don't mean to trigger anyone****** who was diagnosed with cancer and passed away when I was 14. And for the past 14/15 years have cared for my chronically ill husband as well as work, but the work gives me my socialisation, so that's a good thing.

I enjoy early 70s music, not disco, Mark Vincent, Adele, Aston (classically trained musicians who do covers of music from the last 30 years), among others.

Heading back to bed. Have a good sleep everyone.

Hi @Shaz51

Heading to bed. Got up for pain med..grinding teeth so much my jaw is aching! Hope you continue to improve. Will drop in tomorrow. Sleep tight.

@NatalieSWell hello and good night all wrapped into one!! I think we have had some similar experiences. The CSA and a terminal ill parent.

Ohh, Adele, best concert I ever went too, Sweet dreams

@Leah12, well vent all you want on here. Someone will answer. look around at different threads. There is always the Good Morning thread where most people start. I will tag you in there tomorrow morning.