Where can we go for help?

When my daughter was initially diagnosed with bipolar I got in contact with carers NSW and got some counseling that I stopped because I thought it wasn't helpful. I started to go to a carers support group but it's only one day a month and I have to take time off work. I couldn't go to the last one due to the massive time I have had to take off work for my daughter.

I have a carer advocate but I'm not sure how to use that service.

I haven't taken care of myself, I've got caught up with my daughters diagnosis and have been riding her waves which hasn't been pleasant. Work was beyond stressful, I'm dealing with special needs kids and I take them to heart and it breaks my heart that I can't help them beyond what I'm doing. I'm still reliving the psychosis that my daughter went through and everything that she told me (her voices told her to hurt me 😞 and worse).

All this stress got to me one night. I called lifeline and was pretty distraught. I ended the call and had police and ambulance on my doorstep and was sectioned. It was very traumatic, whilst I didn't do anything I was so close and I suppose this has triggered me to get help. I'm waiting to see a psychologist (I stupidly froze out CAHMS), my GP has been good and I see him weekly but he is very very anti medication.

I am very agitated even though my daughter is in a good mood because of being on school holidays. Prior to this I have and no indication of any mental health issues myself, I've been the strong one, the one that keeps everything together and appointments running.

I feel I need to reach out every now and then but I can't use lifeline or anything else in case they call the police again. I found lifeline so beneficial talking me out of what I wanted to do but I can't do it again in case the police and ambulance turn up, I had to lie to the doctors at the hospital to take the section 20 off me.

What else can I do?