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@Bubbles3 Great news. 💗💜🐾🐾

@Catcakes@Faith-and-Hope@Zoe7@Shaz51@Former-Member

so i meet my lawyer next monday. my advicate is giving me free taxi ride there and back. how good is that. coz its like a 45 minute drive from here.

my lawyer said it looks like its not just only be 1 court apperence , it might 2 or 3 , which has made really sad and even more depressed. .

i only wanted to go once and thats it.

so not happy about that

Hi @Bubbles3

That is good you meet your lawyer next Monday and you can get a taxi there and back. Just take one thing at a time. Just concentrate on seeing the lawyer first and then take it from there. We all know that courts are very slow.

Wow ... it’s great that you are getting a ride there and back @Bubbles3 ..... and you have someone representing you ..... you might only want to go once, but at least it’s sounding a lot better than it was yesterday .....

I am happy for you for that much anyway.

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@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Catcakes@Zoe7@CheerBear

well i have so much going on ATM. yesterday was a really bad for me. i did something that i shuldnt have done. i really should have been in hospital. but i to scared to tell anyone because i knew it would upset hubby. but in the result of that , i could have died. so i think i have learnt my lession for time being.

i always seem to fk up

it doesnt matter how hard i try , i just fk it up.

today, its so hot outside, where i sit all day. because i smoke. why cant i go inside and go and do something nice with the kids or do some reading ................BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO. all i want to do is sit by myself, in silence. but i cant even do that because of the kids.

now iv organised for the kids to be picked up . i juust cant deal with them ATM.

is there something wrong with me.

there must be something wrong with me. there has to be.

why dont i want to be around my kids ATM. i hate myself for this.

iv got a massive headache. im trying to drink lots of water.

but its not working

iv got washing pilled up that i need to wash, but i cant do it. i cant do anything. what is wrong with me.

i really hate me

no wonder i want to zone out. this is me on no extra meds.

im stressed, im worn out, im tired, im depressed,im sad that im like this.

i hate this sh*t .

i cant deal with it anymore

i just cant do it anymore

THE END

the kids have gone

they wont be back til 5.30/6. so thats good but i still feel bad.

iv taken my PRNs to try and calm down

iv got to try and do sh*T around the house

my body is so sore, probably coming off all the meds yesterday

i just really hate my life ATM

Hello @Bubbles3 - you didn't tag me, and don't know me yet - but I read your post from 9 minutes ago and wanted you to know I see you and hear you. You are in a place that sounds really horrible to be living right now. Good that you can have a bit of respite from the kids, good move.

What is your next plan after they have been picked up?

Could you call someone and get it all off your chest?

What is underlying your feeling so desperate and separate?

You mentioned "No extra meds" - have you recently come off some or all of your medication? That could be hugely impacting your thoughts and feelings.
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Sometimes, when I am in state, I will call LifeLine 13 11 14 and once even called the SANE helpline 1800 18 7263. They have helped me get clear in my mind what I needed to do next to stay safe and get more help. I will stay here on this thread if you want to talk more.