Taking the plunge

@CheerBear I teared up reading the reliving of some of your trauma. So incredibly hard and brave at the same time.

Interestingly, some of the conversation I had with counsellor yesterday was about how kids can be very cruel. She got that right. My interpretation of her, is ,they are trying to understand feelings and they can say and act in ways that take us completely off guard. She got that right also. The fact that Middle is communicating shows the strength of your relationship. Not easy to see from where you are right now, but an outside view sometimes spots the positives.

You must be beyond exhausted, and beyond everything else. I wish I could get in and help with the physical stuff. Online has some massive frustration.

Two posts from me also

It’s taken a few years for the internals to get me to hear @CheerBear . You are doing ok.

I tend to over react when memories come through. We had a family of teddy bears, one in particular was a fav. Marshmallow was his/her name. But the others were full of character and belonged to different someone’s. One internal shared a problem about a teddy situation, so...................wait for it.................I gave ALL the teddy’s away. Yep, they are really angry. I’m in the dogs house. 😀😀 Last week it was counsellor, so I asked her to move over an make some room.

The teddy give away was about 3 years ago @CheerBear . I’m a bit thick. But they are forgiving, eventually. We will find some more, I will learn to listen.

Living with it better is something I’m doing also @CheerBear . Tongue in cheek, some of the time. 😜😜😜

Angry and sad are perfectly normal ( healthy) emotions. It’s a tough call @CheerBear , no easy road.

Can you veg out in pjs today?

Yes, a quiet day here. Waiting for paint, but it will be slow.

@CheerBear Thank you for being a great friend also.

Good morning @Maggie @CheerBear @Bunniekins

Hearing and feeling you @CheerBear

And you too @Maggie I love that rhyme you shared - it's so true.

How nice that your neighbour will still come to walk with you @Bunniekins

I was up at 5.30 and nearly checked in here, but decided to do some colouring in case sleepiness returned. It didn't! Really feel like a 2nd coffee here but the only other time I did that since getting the new espresso machine my hand tremor flared strongly for the first time in a long time. It rattled me badly. So no 2nd coffee for me darnit.

Hi also to @Former-Member and @Faith-and-Hope and anyone else around here today.

Hoping today is better than yesterday for all here xx

Hi @eth . That’s an early start for you.

I read you have finished your housing application. A major achievement, so congratulations. 👍👍

I would be saying darn it, if I was restricted to one coffee @eth but hand tremors are really hard. I get shaky, different reasons, but it’s not a nice feeling at all.

Will you be able to have a nap sometime during the day, or does that affect your sleep?

Sending you some 💜💜💜💜💜💜

Sorry @Maggie I got caught up on a couple of other long posts and didn't get back here to chat with you. May have missed you now. The housing applic'n is still awaiting one more document. I requested it from c'link 2 weeks ago and still hadn't received it so rang them yesterday and it turns out they've sent the wrong one anyway (even that hasn't come), so it was lucky I rang. Unbelievably they said they never email statements (or anything else) and can't do that. In this day and age! So I'm just hoping the right one gets here within a few days as there's a deadline for the applic'n of June 17 or else the whole thing has to be started again. So ... frustration!

You get it re the tremors/shakiness by the sounds of things. Yes it's not a good feeling. Brings up so much fear for me as I had them for a few years before I came to live here and the new psychiatrist changed one of my meds. So many 'what ifs'.

I will def have at least a rest sometime today.

How's your day looking?

@eth How frustrating. Something like that can be a trigger for me. It’s just so hard for people with MH issues to have to redo stuff. It’s a strange system that’s for sure.

I get shaky a lot @eth . Some conversations on and off line can set it off. Can’t even hold a coffee. I just back off if I can, and rest. Yes, so many ‘ what ifs’. Sometimes it take longer to settle than others. Tricky navigating all this stuff.

Good to hear you will rest some today. I’m off to start some sorting etc. Take care @eth 💜💜💜💜