Taking the plunge

I wish there were more of them @CheerBear . The drive ins. Under the stars, big screen. They were great. Waaaaaaaay back then.

Sounds cosy and fun. Memories the crew will have forever. 👍👍👍👍

I’ve only been going for three weeks, so it doesn’t feel funny. I’m kind of hoping to be missed, but don’t think I will be.

I’m not sure what today holds for me. My kitchen has gone into hiding again, but I have no energy to go searching for it today. That will depend on how hard it is to work around stuff.

Is it a rest day for you and the crew today??

I kind of make it hard for myself with the church stuff @CheerBear . I sit on my own. Many have offered for me to join them, but between seats is an issue for me. Another one. I also leave straight after, they have coffee and chats. I’m really r. e. a. l. l. Y hard to get to know. I’m a private independent person, mixed with terrified and never fitting in, pretty messy all rounder. So, no, they have no way of contacting me. The pastor has my number, she intends to visit sometime, but is a busy lady. I really like a lady pastor.

I don’t think any craft will happen today. I might try some cross stitch, a familiar friend. Something I’m more confident with.

Tricky stuff coming up with Mr Grey. 😠😠I guess it will happen now and again. I hope you can have some really good stuff in the also. It will take time to sort stuff out with his other people. Small steps. 😘😘

I really do get all that twisted relationship stuff @CheerBear . I know when it all happened with my ex, it was the way it was done that caused so much unnecessary pain and confusion. For me anyway.

The fact that he has left speaks volumes I think. Letting go is tricky. So many emotions mixed in, with fear maybe, it’s a huge step for you and Mr Grey, and the other person. You certainly are not a terrible person @CheerBear . This kind of relationship stuff is happening everywhere. It’s a rough ride though.

Uncertanties, wonkeys and walls coming down a bit, are huge. Church for me is facing lots of the same. It’s scary and exciting, and twisted. 🙃🙃🙃

Small steps @CheerBear . Even when we want to run in the opposite direction and say, I told you so. We might be surprised. I hope so. Risky business.

Good morning @CheerBear . I hope 2nd home is going as well as can be expected.

I guess a lot of ‘ fine and normal’ will be happening. 💛💛☕️☕️☕️

I will be thinking of you today as you head home and spend some quality time with Mr Grey. I know there are conversations happening. 🤞🤞🤞🤞

I should have stuck to my cross stitch plan yesterday. Instead, I decided to remove a strange looking shelf in my lounge. Everyone removes them, so, what could go wrong. A bit like your washing machine fix it woman. 💪💪💪

One side cooperated, the other was connected to the river. Nothing I did was going to change that. After twisting and pulling, I noticed a hole. Oh dear. So I tried to put it back together. Kind of friend arrived, thank goodness. She came back with a crowbar. She has oomph I don’t, ( hate that). A loud creeeeeekkkkkk and it was out.

Today it’s a Bunnings trip and patch up job. I keep telling myself, it’s not as bad as it looks ( denial).🥺🥺🥺

I’m enjoying my first morning ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️💛❤️💜💙💚

@Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @outlander @eth @Former-Member @Gazza75 @Owlunar

and anyone else reading 💚💚☕️☕️☕️

@CheerBear I thought you might be feeling lots of self doubt insecure stuff. Roller coaster are the worst with this stuff.

When do you meet today? Hoping early, to relieve some pressure.

Yes @CheerBear 3 holes, one big one made by me. Failed paver is looming in my mind. 🥺🥺🥺

@CheerBear Try not to lose sight of the courage in this relationship. The risks you have taken, the part walls coming down.

The joys and intimacy. The overcoming. Nothing will change those moments.

I know it’s super hard waiting for the unknown.

Dropping off some colour in the greyness. 💛💙💜💚❤️💛💙💜💚❤️