Taking the plunge

Oh gosh @CheerBear self doubt, going crazy, did I make this up,is it really happening. Yey for clicking banana brains. 👍👍👍👍👍 But scary, really scary stuff, I hear that.

I’m hoping with everything inside me ( he ) doesn’t let you down here. But big time think he would be negligent and pay a price for that, so guessing there’s more happening than the eye can see. Hoping so anyway.

The grass is in rolls @CheerBear . Just roll it out. I prepared the patch a few days ago. They only have it once a week, as it dies unless it’s used pretty fast. So she has grass already. 👍👍👍💛

My A is sore from kicking @CheerBear . Though I love a natural storm, emotional storms are way beyond my strength, always have been. Again, a slow learner, as I feel like I’m caught in a storm most of my life.

You made me giggle @CheerBear . I didn’t think it was possible today, but there you go. 😁😁

A bit sore there. Life kicking and A kicking.😂😂

Come Monday I hope “very fine “ will be open, kicking A again I expect, but grateful, definitely not graceful. Life is complicated, simply and complex. Monday is a waiting game, full of big stress, and I expect, a looong way off for you.

It’s hanging on to raft time again. Remember @CheerBear we are also hanging on to and for you, even when our own battles rage. I know you will feel very ‘ alone’ atm. But sitting with you under the lemon or bottlebrush trees, drinking coffee, watching birds, sprinklers, whatever it takes to get there. Messy, painful, wonky, barely, one breath at a time.

@CheerBear

Good morning @Former-Member 💛💛 How are you.

Good morning @Maggie and also @CheerBear

Thanks for asking .. Im not so good. An emotional crash since my psych apt yesterday. Strong urge to run, hide, curl up in foetal position and shut out the world .. permanently. I really dont want to be here. 😔

@Former-Member So sorry. I know all those feels. Really really hard. I noticed you were not around yesterday. 💜💜💜💜

Is there anything you can do today to help? I know you can’t have pj days with hubby and everything. A long bath with something nice?????

I’m heading to the shower to do just that. Warm away some emotional stuff. I can stand in this one without running cold if I wash my hair.

Sending lots of these 💛💛💛💙💙💙💙💜💜💜💜💜

Too much I need to be doing right now @Maggie ... no time for another crash, or emotional overwhelm. So totally fed up and annoyed with myself. Really dont know why I keep trying.

Got hubbys apt at the Imaging place today. And lots still to do to prepare for long drive re family visit from early Monday. But right now ..it all just seems too hard, and pointless.

Sherry

Will you get a break while away @Former-Member .??

I don’t know how you keep going. You always have so much to do for everyone but you.

Could you have a pot of tea while out, I breathing space??. Small, I know, but sometimes it’s grab what you can, on the go.

Sending more 💜💜💜💜🌹🌹🌹🌻🌻🌻🌻

Feeling the support and love here @CheerBear @Maggie @Former-Member and sending mine too to all of you. Hope the day improves for each of you and has some 'me' time in it somewhere. Lots of love and hugs, Eth xx