Taking the plunge

Morning @CheerBear. Not as cold as yesterday, but chilly all the same.

I had a pj day yesterday, did nothing most of the day. 👍👍👍

How did your thingie at school go?

Hows things at 2nd home. And you don’t have to answer either question if you’d rather not. 💜💜

I have my first ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️

@CheerBear I felt a lump in my throat reading your deep and meaningful. 💕💕💕 stepping into ‘roles’ and ‘responsibilities ‘, when you are already overloaded. A really tough conversation. Big feels from me for the full on ness. 💜💜💜

Gosh 100 ish 5-8 yr olds for brekky, wow. Yes cute and loud. I hope little gets some needed rest today. I hope you do, I really hope you do.💕💕💕

You have a double gig this week don’t you?

I don’t often have pj days, but yesterday was one of those’ can’t be bothered’, so I went with the mood. I took pain meds, just knocks the edge off. It’s when it hits my spine that it gets tricky, sticky, yukky. I see a specialist in just over a week, can’t believe I’m looking forward to that.🙃🙃🙃

@CheerBear

You get it @Maggie, with the bang that can come with hearing those responsibilities. I feel sad at the "when I'm not here" stuff. The "you will need to do..." on top of it - full on. He meant well but said that he'll channel himself and I'll feel his presence when I'm doing what he's asked me to. I thought about all the ways my banana brain works and all the shoulds and must-do's that have been problematic for me for as long as I can remember. So many come from his expectations of me. To think they'll still be there even when he isn't made me feel scared I guess. Probably silly, but I think you might get it too.

Sorry. Thanks for listening ❤

I have a double gig week and a treatmwnt week, and a big awards night for Big. I'm feeling the pressure in my chest. I could have dropped the extra gig but it's the one thing for me I can do and I want to do. It's going to a be a big and busy week, needing army style organising with us all here and there and everywhere :face_with_rolling_eyes: I'll look at it all this afternoon and make lists for my lists 😉

Glad you got to go with the mood yesterday, though sorry the mood has probably come from the toughness it has. Pain in your spine sounds super yucky 🙁 So hard to move around and get comfortable I imagine, and making little things hard. Just over a week is good. Is there an outcome youre hoping for from that appointment or will it be the kind of thing thats see what they say?

Heading to the kettle - top up?

@CheerBear Not silly at all. I would, and do, freak out with the ‘ channeling ‘ stuff. I think some comes with being a sensitive caring person. We ‘want and like’ to help, but get overloaded with everyone’s and then some, expectations. No need for sorry @CheerBear .

Hang on to your extra gig @CheerBear , it’s for you, that’s really important this week💙💙. It’s a full on week. Sounds like a ‘ one step at a time ‘. You can only do your best. Do you see your psych this week, a debriefing might be helpful.

I do lists, they help me remember .🙃🙃

I’m hoping the specialist will start me on RA meds. I’ve done X-ray and other tests, hopefully he has those results. I’m usually meds resistant, so hoping that’s not the case here. I had an allergic reaction to the last one I tried. So. 🙃🙃🙃 process of illumination there. But at least it’s a start. 👍👍

@CheerBear Hearing you. Not wanting to add more info to an overloaded brain. 💜💜

I know too well how that feels.

@CheerBear This was supposed to go under ⬆️⬆️ Message. 🙃🙃

Good morning @CheerBear and @Maggie

Hearing you and feeling you @CheerBear and hoping you find some peace amidst it all today.

And @Maggie hope you're in less pain today.

Hi also to @outlander @Former-Member and @Owlunar

I'm sending rain your way too @Former-Member

xoxo to all.