Taking the plunge

heloful.......... 😩😩😩😩😩

@CheerBear Lots going on for you. I find nights can be worse for some strange reason. The repeat/ fast forward buttons get over used. Cold /sinus is draining, definitely not nothing. But I guess on the scale, it can feel like that. Oh no, the house inspection bus, I hate those, but my last two didn’t happen, but all the preparations did.

Must be hard living in two places at once, keeping fur friends fed and comfortable, as well as everyone else. Huge expectations/ needs. Where do you fit in. 💕💜💕

My painting lady didn’t turn up yesterday. No mention of not coming. I’m annoyed, as I made a huge effort. I know she doesn’t know that, but she could have said something. Oh well, such is life.

I was met by the kind of caretaker yesterday morning with three broken rules. 😩😩😩😩 Someone had walked through the dining room with dirty laundry, I didn’t need to know that. But I broke the next two. My dog was not on a lead.......she never has been......I walked on the grass.......I’ll do it again today. 😁😁😁✔️✔️

@CheerBear Yes, the stillness outside, restless inside night feelings.

Big feels with the stepping on your chest feelings, and the not tipping over, but scared also. I don’t tip over externally, but internally.......yes, big cave ins there. Not that anyone would pick up on, but it’s the after affects of pressure. For me, small things take huge amounts of energy. Most don’t have to think about it, they do it naturally. I scrub up well, sometimes, wish I didn’t, but honestly don’t know how not to. It’s not a ....keeping up appearances.....thing, more like survival. It’s a fast and at times, cruel world.

Yes the over the top control. The manager told me I can pick flowers for pressing, kind of caretaker says NO. So I pick anyway. I’m over it all now. His problem, not mine.

Will you have time to do any crochet today.? I’m heading for another. ☕️☕️☕️☕️

Hi again @CheerBear @Maggie .... 🤗🤗

Thanks so much for all the 💜💜💜☕️☕️☕️🌻🌻🌻

and here is some back for both of you .... 🌻🌻🌻💜💜💜☕️☕️☕️ 💕

Yes, in the still and calm of the wee hours my mind starts to unpack the things I need to work on. It sort of sets out a picnic blanket .... lol.

I have to start working out how to ground our drama cycles better than I have been .... and work out how/why I keep feeling shocked every time a new hit-by-a-bus situation arises ..... and thinking we can get through occasions and events without them ?!

It’s tossy and turny, but I think productive anyway.

Need to get up and go find coffee .....

Hearing you both, and feeling lots for you ❣️

Hearing and feeling you also @Faith-and-Hope 💜💜☕️☕️🌻🌻 Thanks you dropping by, always appreciated. 💕💕👍👍