Taking the plunge

Yes pleeeeese @CheerBear

A bit dark today, but I’ll get over myself.....eventually.😩😩😩

I kind of made the rally, just didn’t become part of the group. A good turn out globally, so good to see.

How are you doing? Is it school holidays now, or are they soon.?

Its pretty huge that you made the rally @Maggie ❤ It's OK to sit with dark (though I get it doesn't always feel like that).

I'm OKish/enough thanks. Not the best last couple of days but today has started well enough. I did something nice for me yesterday before school was out as, yep, school holidays have now started. I am looking forward to some of it but they're tricky too. Yesterday I had to get new glasses which stressed me out so badly I went for a massage to stop a huge anxiety meltdown at the optometrist. I rarely do the massage thing but thought it was a nice me time thing before the next couple of weeks.

I think I read that you have painting planned today? How are you feeling about that?

@CheerBear So pleased to read you had a massage before optometrist yesterday. I do the huge meltdown with any appointment, so I totally get that. New glasses will be good when you get them also, if you don’t mind wearing them that is, but mostly no choose there.

Yes tricky with holidays is so true, specially with little or no support.

Are you visiting unwell person this weekend? No need to answer if you don’t want to.

Yes painting this afternoon and I really don’t want to go, but I just can’t / won’t let her down. And usually I push past my own yukky for a little bit. So I will be heading out at 2pm. 😩😩😩

Big 😁😁 with the glasses @CheerBear I have all those bigs everywhere. Lights, choices, noise, not the mirrors though, always avoid them unless they just appear unannounced.

Oh, visiting I Hope is good, big ohh and ahh to the puppies. 😁😁

As for pushing past the yukkies, it’s not always helpful, as my fine takes so much energy when I’m so not fine. But my protection kicks in. Strange that one, but letting her down, gives my not fine away. 😩😩😩 OMG I’m so very weird I know, but in my complex world, I seem to make sense of it all. 😇😇😇😇 If you understand that.

@CheerBear I understand the tough decisions regarding adding to your circus. It is expensive, time consuming and can be stressful. It’s a long term commitment with advantages and disadvantages. Must be hard went 2/3 want to add to your family. Definitely worth taking it slowly and talking things through.

The consequences of admitting I’m not fine out weight the masks of fine ness. People judge from lack of understanding, and my body is kind of ok ish, so, and gossip causes pain, frustration, fear and anger, so a few hours of fine/ not fine painting looks a wiser choice at the end of the day.

I have a lounge filled with one box I opened yesterday looking for a needed to sew in the ends of my crochet. My craft box has to be the biggest box, filled with smaller boxes. I just knew that needed was in the haystack. But it wasn’t. It was in my sewing machine stuff, obviously. So I’m off to repackage, reclaim my very small lounge room.

So good to hear unwell person had a good week. Hope your day goes well. Will you be staying longer because of holidays?

Catch you later. 😍😍