Taking the plunge

Yep - feel most of that @Maggie -except I am really good at putting on that mask that says 'I am not really ok but ok for now" - everyone sees this but the reflection in the mirror knows the truth

As bed is not a safe place I spend most of my time on the couch. The days are a little better - I feel more able to do things during the day but the nights are extrememly tough still.

I know the night/bed struggles @Zoe7, I don't think I have slept in years, Seriousely true. I'm actually afraid to sleep, though I rest, that's it. Gosh life is tough. I do the OK face also, mostly that's all most people want or are able to cope with. That why I'm now a hermit, it's hard but better than navigating my way around people.

You take care of you today if you can. I know self care is a big ask, I'm just catching snippets recently, then the guilt follows, can't win can we. Sending you gently good wishes.💜💕🐾🐾

Sleep has been my biggest issue for so long I cannot even remember a time I did sleep through the night - sometime as a young child I must have @Maggie I am not sure if you are aware of why I fear sleep so much but to put it simply - I fear going to sleep as I don't think I will wake up but then most nights hope I don't wake up when I can get some sleep - it is a horrible place to be every night

Don't worry about only catching snippets - you can only do/read/know what you can in the moment - and your presence is enough

Hi @Maggie and @Zoe7.

Sorry to read of your continued struggles. I havent been around much lately, but wanted to let you both know that I often think of you.

Like the pair of you, I also have serious issues with sleep. I totally get it. And for me, with the anniversary of my trauma coming up next month, I am dreading the usual difficulties on top of hubby's illness etc.

I wish only the best for the pair of you. And I will drop in one day soon and spend a bit more time here. I miss our regular chats Maggie. And Zoe too.

Sherry xx

Miss you too @Former-Member. We are with you in the coming anniversary and hubbys health problems. Often think of you, specially when I see the moon and stars. You take care if you can.💗💕🐾

Nice to 'see' you @Former-Member - however briefly I was wondering how you were going yesterday after hearing Tippett had retired - but I am sure that is the least of your worries right now

Although it is no real comfort at the time - just knowing that you and @Maggie both understand how hard the nights are does make a difference ( @Former-Member is with us here too )

I understand how hard those anniversaries are @Former-Member and having your hubby's illness on top of that makes it soo much harder - know we are here with you and for you to help you through this upcoming time. Reach out @Former-Member and lean on us as much as you need - it doesn't change how we feel but it does help a little to get through

@Zoe7@Former-Member I've had this for a while, thought I'd share with you, it's so what we do.

Hi @Maggie, and thanks so much. Yes indeed I'M **OK** . Nice one.

Hello also to @Zoe7 @Bunniekins @Former-Member

Sherry

yep so us @Maggie @Former-Member lol

@Former-Member Hi Sherry can you talk or just too emotionally exhausted ... I read that you are ok ... ok is better than not so I will take that as a positive.xx Thanks for checking in.