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Hello @CheerBear, I'm still teetering on collapse, but I am determined not to be hospitalised again. If I do that, I'll fail my course and I simply cannot let that happen. I'm on an emergency cancellation list to see my psychiatrist earlier than next month if I can. I'm stressed and anxious but alive, so that's something I guess.

Thanks for thinking of me.

Hey @outlander. Thanks for thinking of me.

@Queenie I'm one of the others that @CheerBear just referred to - here listening and caring about you.

@Queenie

I am in the background so as not to overwhelm you..am here though because you do matter to me and yes as others have also said I care..

find that strength that you have and get that urgent appointment...my gp years ago whom has since retired told me...if you ever need an urgent appointment and the receptionist replies no...you state emphatically that is for my doctor to decide who is medically trained...I have just been there with getting a referral...it does work if you use your strength which I know that you have..

Thank you @Phoenix_Rising, @Former-Member and @CheerBear for reminding me that people do care. Sometimes my own world is very bleak and isolating.

I saw my support worker today and she has completed some of her NDIS stuff. The self-management part of the report was damning, but I guess that's whats needed in order to get some sort of package. It was hard hearing all the negative stuff about my life compiled into a report to hand some government department. It didn't make me feel good about myself at all.

Thank God that's done.

thats really good @Queenie im so glad it sorted out for you, well done for sticking it out

maybe try to do soemthing nice for yourself this afternoon/evening

She said my doctor filled out my form incorrectly. I'd believe that as the doctor just ticked No No No No No and No. Ho hum...

I managed to get through to the HC which helped a bit too. Although I always feel like I am taking up their time that could be better spent with someone more deserving of it. I always feel like that about services... that I don't deserve it.

At least I don't feel like drinking at the moment... although it is only 11am where I am.

so pleased that things are moving along @Queenie

our self-esteem gets such a battering when we have to deal with one thing after another..

I can easily reply and say that you must not think that way...you are just as deserving as the next person ..

I am not going to do that because that is what I usually do put everyone else's feelings first....

we have to stop treating ourselves this way @Queenie

we have to stand up more and more for ourselves along with remaining compassionate and caring for others....find a balance.

wish me good luck ...I wish you good luck too..

Hey @Former-Member, I do wish you all the very best my friend.

Do you know what I wish for all of us here at SANE? I wish one day I'll log in and see nobody posting because they have been healed and reached recovered status. I include myself in that statistic. I just want everyone here to keep on keeping on and find their recovery, wherever it may be.