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MDTSenior Contributor
I'm really worried about my future...
There's so much effort required to get anywhere in life and I don't think I can do it.
I'm always worried that I won't 'get there'
For someone my age I'm very worried and very stressed as well as not being very optimistic about the future..
I'm just afraid and concerned and I hate it..
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TABSenior Contributor
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MDTSenior Contributor
hey everyone
just wanted to bring in a bit of an update for where things are at
been trying to keep a solid dosage of my meds going for 2 weeks now, been doing relatively well. Forgetting still. I don't know why.
Also managed to get to the gym 3 times in the past week. So that's a good thing too. My goal is to maintain that - just getting there is hard. So I can push myself into that.
Last week I contacted an old colleague/associate from a group i used to write/volunteer with. Turns out they need some help still and the lady offered to help me find some work too. I won't hold my breath because these networking types can be filled with crap. But it's worth a shot.
The intimacy/relationships thing is still getting to me. But I have noticed that I'm more relaxed with people too. Able to make smalltalk and such - like today i remarked at a coffee shop that they were the only ones open in the area and everyone else was shut. This was big for me for two reasons, usually I don't say anything because I'm too nervous/shy/depressed and the girl serving me was also pretty cute too and I get intimidated by that. It's absurd really. But I was just happy I could overcome the hurdle that was there. It's not even something worth worrying about.
I guess I'm really trying to take it one day at a time now. Way easier said than done.
Group therapy is helping me keep a steady track on where I am at.The other anxiety group I go to once a month was on again last week and it was meh. It did help though. I don't mindfulness is something I find all that useful, but only when I try to focus on that present moment.
I've also found some alternatives for next year in the event the graduate offer doesn't go anywhere. They are hard to organise as it needs effort. But I guess it is baby steps now.
Weekends are the hardest when I have nothing to do. But last Friday night I was eating my dinner at home and talking to my sister about how we've had to grow up faster than everyone else around us - due to her sickness when she was younger and my own personal mental health struggles. It was a really helpful chat.
I'm trying to stave off anxiety and panic every day and that is rather hard. Also depression. But my psych said I have been improving 🙂
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soulSenior Contributor
Really happy to read your positive update @MDT and reckon you are doing very well for yourself. Taking all these steps has made a big difference. Keep it up.
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TABSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Couldn't have said it better myself guys .... it's great to hear you sounding more positive @MDT .... wtg ..... 😊
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MDTSenior Contributor
I have woken up feeling like a failure today
Just the realisation that I have no life... that I am wasting away
I have it good yet I'm not happy and I am starting to feel guilty because of this
I feel like I'll never get anywhere and be in a spiral of self-imposed grief
I feel like I have abandoned myself through self-imposed exile
I'm scared too
Scared of not getting anywhere in my life and being like this all my life
It's been 5 years in the making and I'm still not getting anywhere...
Feels like all this good I've been experiencing the past week or two has just been a smokescreen..
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