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hurry up time im petrified!

outlanderSenior Contributor21 Sept 2017, 10:11 pm AEST

hurry up time im petrified!

So on wednesday I went to see my gp about a skin spot I was finding to be quite suspicious and the news turned out to be not what I expected.
They want the spot surgically removed urgently as in tuesday unless others cancel and i can get in earlier. They want the whole thing and as it looks like its spreading already they want more than just the top taken off then if it comes back malignanat more tests to see how far its spread then removed those areas

the worrying part s I i dont know how long its been there for and because ive noticed it change twice its a very bad sign. Unintentionally coming off her was fear. Fear from others makes me worse and she was sending off alot of that. She pointed out 2 other points that she noticed that are really not good and are often seen in skin cancers.

Im so scared and it seems like tuesday is taking forever to get here. Its really not easy to sit with and accept. Im bloody pertrified!

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Unknown userMember22 Sept 2017, 4:00 am AEST

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How are you feeling now, need more distraction?

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Sept 2017, 4:03 am AEST

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Yeah its pretty interesting @Former-Member
Oh wow i wanted to be a teacher but hmm not really for me do you enjoy it?

Art is a skill and anyone can learn it. You might start crappy which im still in that stage but you learn to work with your artistic style and build upon those skills.

Yeah they are dreadful things arent they. All that work for a few minutes then a major crash. Not great. This diagnoses and up coming things are really getting to me. Its do hard to not do anything and all i can do is wait

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Unknown userMember22 Sept 2017, 4:09 am AEST

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I do enjoy teaching @outlander but have taken some time off work due to some traumas there. Let's just say I work in an extremely hard school wth lots of challenging students.

panic attacks are shitty (sorry one other thing is I swear a lot), I find them exhausting. That waiting game is just as bad especially when it is out of your control. You seem to have a great support network on here that you can rely on.

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Sept 2017, 4:16 am AEST

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Ahh yes i understand @Former-Member my school had alot of challenging kids too and many with learning difficulties. Kudos to you for working in that environment though. Its not easy ❤

Thats ok swear away. I let out a few choice words every now anc then too. Think it comes with the frustration of daily surviving

The waiting game is the worst! Im on call for both tomorrow and monday in case an earlier spot becomes available. The fact they are doing it so early and asap makes me even more worried

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Unknown userMember22 Sept 2017, 4:24 am AEST

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Waiting game is the worst @outlander. Hopefully you get in earlier to see them for your peace of mind.

but maybe if you don't get in earlier you need to be able to preoccupy yourself somehow. And I know, much easier saidthan done!!

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Sept 2017, 4:26 am AEST

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I doubt ill get in earlier @Former-Member in a way i hope not as the kids are in school holidays and ivr just organised a babysitter for Tuesday.
I really hope its nothing. This really sucks. Im not looking forward to the aftermath of surgury either

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Sept 2017, 4:27 am AEST

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I have work and study to do but they are so overwhelming right now that its hard to do. Will have to try and keep myself busy over the next few days

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Unknown userMember22 Sept 2017, 4:33 am AEST

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Just take day by day @outlander or even hour by hour (crap, I sound like me bloody psychologist 😀).

make a little list of the things you are going to do that day.

That's what I do. Mind you my list consists of only 3 things, that's all I can handle at the moment, but still it's a list.

So that list might include an hour of studying, working. Hell that might be your list for the day!!

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outlanderSenior Contributor22 Sept 2017, 4:37 am AEST

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Lol mine says that too @Former-Member im reduced to moment by moment one minute im drifting off to sleep next a panic attack.
My list is always huge
Tomorrow well today
Im suppose to work both jobs
Study
Take and pick up sisters from school and watch the.
Do what i nee to do for pop in the day including all the housework stuff

Sometimes and esp the past few days i wake up and go oh shite another day is here

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Unknown userMember22 Sept 2017, 4:40 am AEST

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Wow that is a big list @outlander, where in that list is time just got you?

all I manage is making sure kids get to school in clean clothes and have food, food shopping and washing, oh and tea cooked!

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