the longest wait while being petrified

Anytime @outlander, we all help each other out❤️

i do really care for you @outlander oxoxoxo

They want more treatment done.
I have to have more surgury because its cancerous and they want to get it all so they want to do more surgury. They want just abit more out to make sure its all gone. At least its not the worst kind. Just more sutures
I cant have any more procedures done till mum gets back. They want to take out more marginal space to make sure they get it all.
Shes eatimating a few more sutures just ao they can get it all. Then will just have to keep watches but because i caught it early its not too bad.

@Owlunar i have a form of skin... nope still cant say it cant get past the c

i go in for more surgury next friday and get them sent away to see if theres still those cells in the skin if it comes up clear then no more surgury, if it comes up those cells are still in there then another surgury.

Aw sheesh @outlander - this is really tough

I really can't imagine how this is affecting you - I had a scare once a long time ago but it wasn't cancer - but I did have an operation for it and wow - facing that has to be hard

And facing it alone - that is so much worse - and you are alone

No wonder you had a panic attack - or three or however many - I would too - I don't know what to say except I care a lot - it seems you have a lot of people here caring

And I had better not say anything about your mother - you know what I think about your mother - I think she is only entitled to be that because of biology

Yes - I know you are going crackers without something to do and you have those little sisters - but please tell me how old the first one is because she could be doing something to entertain herself at least - and your financial issues - yes - there should be no need to spend all you have pocket-wise entertaining a couple of people who can surely entertain themselves - and yes - there are many things you can do without spending much and how long do you have until the people in your house come up to the usual amount and someone can chip in for the movies etc - which cost a fortune for a very short time

I am thinking of you and wish I could be there - I am alone feeling very physically uncomfortable myself - and I have my usual chores but no hard work - I have plenty to do though - just thinking of you a whole lot

This is so hard on you

Dec

Good Morning Claire @outlander

Oh My Goodness! You poor thing! I love you ! Everything will be alright. I can't believe you were left to supervise children after you'd had the first surgery, after a car accident and your neuro-biological disorder had landed you in hospital - I just can't believe how your Mother could leave you in this position! . . . and no offense {I know you will look after your Sisters}, but how she could leave them in that position!

What an absolutely terrible time to get such news, I really feel for you! Your alone, responsible for your Sisters, injured, broke . . . it's a really bad scene! I don't mean to be highlighting your darkness right now, I just want you to know - I see it; your right . . . it's bad.

But what is good, is that this serious health problem {not that your other health problems aren't bad, how is your foot going and your shoulder from the accident?} has been discovered and is being treated. You will not see it, you can not feel it, but the strength I see in you posts is incredible. How quickly you re-grouped over this fear. I'm guessing it's more of the numbness, that this is like a 'not happening' thing. Sometimes the 'blur' can be a sanctuary, it helps you get through. I don't think I'd be just blurring if I were going through what your going through - I'd be a blubbering, jellied mess on the floor. My child did a lot of looking after me when they lived at home - your Sisters would have to be looking after me if I was in your situation, they'd have no choice, I would have collapsed!

YOU ARE STRONG

I AM PROUD OF YOU!!!

Love, hugs, caring, fussing, kindness and genuine worry for you Claire

Niqua

I have to agree with @Sans911,we are here for you,to vent outlander.I think you are just frustrated like myself with my mother @outlander,I just want and need time for me and even though they've kept you busy,you just are frustrated not having time for yourself , especially when you have your own problems.With me it's the hopelessness @outlander, in every aspect of my life so yes I understand my girl.