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utopiaSenior Contributor27 Aug 2017, 3:34 pm AEST

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Well I'm finally home (again).
4 hospital stays in 91 days. Wow. No wonder it feels so strange to be in my own house again. Adjusting will take time. Cooking for myself will take time.
My house is in the same condition in which I left it. A pigsty. So no one room has warmth and charm to lift my mood. Will have to slowly start cleaning up - one room at a time.
I did go and watch my son play soccer in the finals. I'd been so sick this year - thst it was the first game I had been to all year. His team lost. But they play again next week. So still stand a chance of playing the grand final.
My son is still living with my mum. Has been since the end of April. Hopefully he will see how much I've improved on my new anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Then he may choose to come home soon.
Was up and doing the washing early this morning. But now reading a book in bed.
Am very bored. But have AA Meeting tomorrow night.
And I have my WorkCover IME (independent Medical Examination) - psych interview with a tough psychiatric on the 30th of this month. Think it could be on Wednesday. And then I have my much waited for Psychologist appointment. Can't see him when I'm in hospital (too far away).
So that's it for now. A new thread for a new beginning.
@Zoe7 @soul @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Bast @oceangirl @outlander @Former-Member @Teej @BlueBay @Owlunar

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 10:32 am AEST

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OMG @utopia ...... its so similar to the one I sent you this morning ..... I can't believe it ❣️

That is sooooo beautiful ..... I can understand why you bought it ..... it remadiates peace and healing.

So pleased for you ..... ❣️

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utopiaSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 10:45 am AEST

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Yes, a few women are allowed to paint the Bush Medicine Leaves songline. So you will see many women from the Utopia region who will paint the same image as mine.
Your image has a modern twist.
My painting is about 140cm x about 65cm. So it's pretty big.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 10:47 am AEST

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Just beautiful @utopia .... ❣️

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soulSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 11:13 am AEST

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It's beautiful @utopia - a lovely gift to yourself. A healing plant - I hope it makes you feel calm. In my Meditation class this week, the instructor spoke how the senses can be a gateway to meditation.

What you need to do is look at that incredible painting and allow postive thoughts to flow through you. Then when you are anxious, go back to that painting, even a pic of it on your phone or your memory of it and those same thoughts and feelings can cause you to feel better.

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utopiaSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 12:17 pm AEST

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Thank you @soul. It is a healing painting. I'll do what you suggest and incorporate it into a safe healing meditative place

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soulSenior Contributor29 Sept 2017, 12:26 pm AEST

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Thanks so much for sharing the painting with us @utopia. Must be amazing to see it in real life. You chose well.

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utopiaSenior Contributor30 Sept 2017, 2:07 am AEST

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2am and I'm still awake. My brain is working overtime and won't stop thinking. Breathing exercises aren't working for me tonight.
I keep thinking about an old friend I don't see any more and Dylan Voller and my second mum / friend who passed away last year. My mind keeps jumping from one to another and back again.
Think I'll have to exercise my mind tomorrow - so it's quiet at night.

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utopiaSenior Contributor30 Sept 2017, 3:03 am AEST

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Still awake. Aaarrrggghhh I hate this.

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soulSenior Contributor30 Sept 2017, 4:21 am AEST

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I see that you are restless @utopia - I hope that you got to sleep. It's hard when we can't switch our mind off. When this happens, sometimes it's good to try for a distraction - something soothing. Maybe some calming music or watching a nature documentary.

I came across a beautiful clip yesterday. I'd like to share it with you.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=2f9SItUEtJ8

I love the soundtrack. Hans Zimmer is one of my favourite composers. He has done lots of movie soundtracks.

Why am I awake now? My daughter and I went out to dinner and I ate too much too late in the day so now my stomach is complaining. Think I'll need a detox day.

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utopiaSenior Contributor30 Sept 2017, 9:30 am AEST

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@soul - sorry to see you up so early. I hope your tummy settles down.
It was beautiful music on that clip. Thank you. It looks to be fascinating. I should watch the first series. I might do that on nights I struggle to sleep.
Was up til about 4.30. Up at 7 with a full bladder & again at 9am. So I'm up now and willhave a shower.
I need to go to the pharmacy and supermarket and get some hooks for my painting.
Then mum is coming at 11 - to help me put the pulled down lattice and vine in the trailer. Then I can mow the overgrown front yard.
After that, it will be rest time.
Do you have any plans for today?

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