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utopiaSenior Contributor27 Aug 2017, 3:34 pm AEST

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Well I'm finally home (again).
4 hospital stays in 91 days. Wow. No wonder it feels so strange to be in my own house again. Adjusting will take time. Cooking for myself will take time.
My house is in the same condition in which I left it. A pigsty. So no one room has warmth and charm to lift my mood. Will have to slowly start cleaning up - one room at a time.
I did go and watch my son play soccer in the finals. I'd been so sick this year - thst it was the first game I had been to all year. His team lost. But they play again next week. So still stand a chance of playing the grand final.
My son is still living with my mum. Has been since the end of April. Hopefully he will see how much I've improved on my new anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Then he may choose to come home soon.
Was up and doing the washing early this morning. But now reading a book in bed.
Am very bored. But have AA Meeting tomorrow night.
And I have my WorkCover IME (independent Medical Examination) - psych interview with a tough psychiatric on the 30th of this month. Think it could be on Wednesday. And then I have my much waited for Psychologist appointment. Can't see him when I'm in hospital (too far away).
So that's it for now. A new thread for a new beginning.
@Zoe7 @soul @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Bast @oceangirl @outlander @Former-Member @Teej @BlueBay @Owlunar

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor02 Aug 2019, 9:34 pm AEST

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OMG @utopia .... I’m speechless !!!! 😦🥵

How can they possibly get it so wrong ???!!

Does the alternative medical support mean coming to the city ?

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Unknown userMember02 Aug 2019, 9:47 pm AEST

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Oh gosh @utopia ! It sounds like such a rollercoaster of thoughts/emotions and bringing up old memories as well...

It sounds really overwhelming and finding a quick fix is very tempting. Is there anything that you could do for yourself that may help you tonight?

Sending good thoughts to you tonight.

I'm so glad to see all the amazing support from the community. It doesn't make your situation any better @utopia but I hope it can provide some comfort to know we all hear you and send our best wishes to you.

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utopiaSenior Contributor02 Aug 2019, 10:18 pm AEST

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@Faith-and-Hope . Going to hospital means going to Melbourne.

The local Inpatient unit is 50 minutes from my town. I won't go there.

My psychologist suggested I go to hospital. So I rang my psychiatrist just before 12.30. Plenty of time for him to arrange hospital admission.

But no. No help.

And this is the Private system!!!

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Zoe7Senior Contributor02 Aug 2019, 10:21 pm AEST

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@utopia That is beyond belief!!! Has your pdoc heard anything you have talked about???

It is totally unacceptable that he would even suggest that and borders on neglect.

So angry for you Hon. How dare he even mention that hospital knowing that that is where your fears and PTSD come from. Beyond words here

Of course you hurt - it has been insufferable for you lately and with seemingly no help in sight. The system is beyond broken when someone like you ask for help and yet you are not only not listened to but the actions of 'professionals' would put you in a worse situation.

I can only echo what others have said here though @utopia - we care, we are here for you and are listening. Cannot believe the position your pdoc has put you in and very much hearing how angry, frustrated and hurt you are feeling.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor03 Aug 2019, 3:44 am AEST

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I had a psychiatrist make our situation much worse @utopia . Won’t go into that here .... but as devastating as it was for us, I am totally gobsmacked with yours ..... unbelievable !! I am so angry for you too Hon, and here with you.

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utopiaSenior Contributor03 Aug 2019, 8:32 pm AEST

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Last night and tonight I rang LufeLine. It was a good help. I just needed to get everything off of my chest.

And after the call I was able to fall asleep. Was mentally drained.

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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor03 Aug 2019, 8:45 pm AEST

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That’s the best news @utopia ❣️ So proud of you for doing that, and that the people you spoke to at Lifeline were in tune with what you needed ..... so well done, and not at all surprised you’re exhausted. It’s been a terrible while for you, but hopefully, little by little things can start to improve again.

Here, listening and believing in you ❣️