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Well I'm finally home (again).
4 hospital stays in 91 days. Wow. No wonder it feels so strange to be in my own house again. Adjusting will take time. Cooking for myself will take time.
My house is in the same condition in which I left it. A pigsty. So no one room has warmth and charm to lift my mood. Will have to slowly start cleaning up - one room at a time.
I did go and watch my son play soccer in the finals. I'd been so sick this year - thst it was the first game I had been to all year. His team lost. But they play again next week. So still stand a chance of playing the grand final.
My son is still living with my mum. Has been since the end of April. Hopefully he will see how much I've improved on my new anti depressants and anti anxiety meds. Then he may choose to come home soon.
Was up and doing the washing early this morning. But now reading a book in bed.
Am very bored. But have AA Meeting tomorrow night.
And I have my WorkCover IME (independent Medical Examination) - psych interview with a tough psychiatric on the 30th of this month. Think it could be on Wednesday. And then I have my much waited for Psychologist appointment. Can't see him when I'm in hospital (too far away).
So that's it for now. A new thread for a new beginning.
@Zoe7 @soul @Former-Member @Faith-and-Hope @Bast @oceangirl @outlander @Former-Member @Teej @BlueBay @Owlunar

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There is only one thing that has occurred to me that might help. I know it might not be possible to do this with how you are feeling now, @utopia. But here goes anyway...

It's an exercise my psychologist gave me. It helps me at times when I am feeling particularly down on myself. It goes like this:

  • put hand over heart with gentle touch
  • say out loud 'I forgive you'
  • avoid questioning it
  • once done, let it go

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I'm sorry @utopia

❤️BB

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Sitting with you @utopia ..... good to hear you are applying whatever safety strategies you can.

Hugs n hugs ..... 💜💜💜

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@utopia

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How are you doing my beautiful cocky friend? @utopia

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She's beautiful. Thanks @Zoe7.

Started feeling better yesterday afternoon. Accepted it's all my self talk taking over. So told it to p.. off.

After an hours sleep went and picked my mum up from hospital and took her home.

Put her washing on. Unpacked her clothes. Etc etc. Stayed for 2 hours. Til my son turned up. He'll stay with mum for a few nights and make sure she's o.k.. But he refused to speak to me. Ouch. Thought I'd buy some bourbon cans to numb myself, but decided no.

Did my shopping. Driving home police pulled me over. Out she gets with the breathaliser. Super glad I'm not drinking. But she tells me my regional is cancelled. From December last year. Can't believe it. But I can, coz I'm forgetful. Think I've paid things when I haven't. Don't think I've paid, so double pay a bill.

Anyway, they let me drive home. Only one street away. Then they took my number plates off the car and explained the fine etc.

Have to get a roadworthy certificate. Approx $150. Pay regional approx. $360. And pay the fine $806 - ouch ouch ouch.

So feeling flat. Going to eat some chocolate and go to sleep.

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Rego. Car Rego. Stupid auto correct

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Oh ouch is right @utopia that completely sucks - I nearly forgot my rego a couple of years ago - it was so much easier when the sticker was on the car and you knew when it came up. If I don't pay it straight away I forget too. ...but what a huge cost for you to have to deal with - I would be a mess - so you are doing really well with it - and chocolate and sleep fixes everything right!!

Glad you are feeling a little better and so proud of you for avoiding getting those cans - that must have been tough to resist

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Hi @utopia - just did a quick read of this thread and see that you have had more than your fair share of troubles lately. Seems that they are raining down on you. Really hope that things get better for you.

Can you head up to that mountain again soon?

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@utopia checking in to see how you are travelling and leave you a present...

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