Bastless and Odin

@utopia

I am so relieved and pleased for you - a truly karma based result - now you can recover and relax.

Rest well

Lotsa luv and thoughts Bastless and Odin

Hi @utopia

so many thank yous for your incredibly poingnant post. Just so evocative and completely true. I am an Odin cat - struggling to continue and as he must feel just trying to feel safe.

It is so true that we can recognise improvement in our mental state. Mine is unfortuantely at the point of the constant need to surrender, my hold on the wall has weakened badly. I just so hate feeling like this and then it becomes self loathing - unfortunately you get it from personal experience.

On Odin - he has now fully adjusted to mainstream wet cat food and small meals. He is doing well with the weight loss and has a marginal increase in activity. He actually came down to investigate my return with the shopping last week. Subsequently Baby Girl and Oracle smacked him. A race for santuary ensued - back to the protaganists study for relief.

It is just wonderful to see him venture out of his room when he can. The wobbling around the banisters continues - somehow he knows this is what he can do. So longing for Odin to be safe enough and strong enough to wear his undies on the outside - leap and literally fly.

The protagonist has accepted to some degree how miserable I am feeling - I feel his concern that I might not make it through this round. Kinder as a result.

Bastless and Odin

@utopia@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Former-Member@Queenie@Appleblossom

Hi Utopia

You are a incredible writer and person, thank you for your thoughts and care. Today I ran with your advise the big girl undies were needed - I wore them. I drove the usual 40klm each way and conducted 6 sessions with people in need of MH support.

I did not want to get out of bed and I certainly did not want to leave the house - did it anyway - WW here I come with a gold lasoo. Not quite but still kept your analogy and your words as a very treasured incentive. I just simply refuse to wear that astonishingly bad gold crown.

The clinging onto the wall has been strengthened as a result. You are so right I am a strong person, I hope as strong as you. We are the Odin's of this world, warriors within and at times needing relief. i do so fear further corrosion due to onslaughts from the 5 months of workplace trauma and belittlement. I also really fear the financial consequences - my furrbabies will always be cared for however I do not know how I can do the rest.

The SI stuff is so tangible - however I feel that somehow I am being looked after, last years events were tricky. I am smply not meant to. - the why is a reflection pathway - healthier than others.

I so hope that you and the beautiful Abey are doing OK - it is so much about time to heal. I have to take your self care on board although I cannot just decide to read a novel anymore. I used to do the cover to cover - I am now unable.

How are you travelling with the domestic goddess routine - an inescapable part of our lives isn't it. I have after all of this time at tleast commenced - long way to go though. When I consider it I just want to curl up in my bed, medicate and make it go away - I think it is so symbolic of the stage.

On Odin and new friends

Odin is continuing to do well on his diet, I am a mean mummy, no more snacks (dried food) he is doing better with the wobbly balance and today visited downstairs upon my return home. He subsequently did a (relatively) well balanced walk and greeted me for a pat - a parade to be proud of. We played for a while - trying to teach him to leap up. The protangonist has been informed that this is important to continue - doubtful he will! Interestingly Odin is now finding his part in the hierachy here, the iron thrown continues to belong to Baby Girl, although Odin is now strong enough to defend and take more territory - the protangoinst reported he is now smacking Oracle back, whilst using his climbing pole for cover. Bengals are so smart when encouraged. From all reports Odin has never met another feline before - wow this is encouraging, he will learn from them. I now have baby girl (somewhat on the overweight side (bad mothering) able to leap from the bench to the kitchen cabinets, a feat she has never displayed before. I think she remembers Bast as does Oracle, he used to cuddle up with him. He has certanly trialled my others however not quite the same.

I take TB to bed now every night - somehow it helps.

Lotsa luv Bastless and Odin

@utopia@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Former-Member@Queenie@Appleblossom

Hi Utopia - thank you you made me smile, how utterly lovely. Well I am not the only bad mum after all - how is your other somewhat generously proportioned furrbaby doing?: And - wow you are so much better than than the GD thing - lawns are looking good.

Much better than in our WW big blue starred pants - urghuuuuuuu. Although the image still worked for me today. No more for tomorrow though - not up for the girdle that will be essential. Or the stuff you into into that will supposedly fix everthing - pity that I can't actually breathe.

Psychologist tomorrow - I literally still cannnot talk about what has happened - last appointment overdrive due to panic.

I am still trying to get another appointment with the psych - she sent the necessity to GBS and to my GP - throw L back into the mix - no chance from my perspective, did a bit of a party with L and did not shape up well for a week. Now the GP is snooty at being told what to do. I am supposed to to do the full on testing thing, not keen, as I do not want to know, great stuff to also have to consider. All I really want is to run away and make it all go away.

My superan will keep my furrbabies going.

Bastless and Odin