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Bastless and Odin
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Dear all lovely people
Sometimes the greatest loss leads to another option. Although Bast has physically gone, the influence remains as strong as ever. My other furrbabies seem to have gone through the initial adjustment phase and are now stronger as a result. My A child certainly did handle the cat herd so well. All others tended to wander around lost as I did. Then the dynamic of feline leadership began to shift. -
They all needed cuddles as did I, and as they developed - my furrbabies commenced developing another strategy. My baby girl (rescue at 4 weeks) is currently holding the iron throne, although Oracle another early recue is in usurping role - he is deaf and to hear his interpretation of growling and mewling is phenomomel - somehow he knows.
I lost Bast 5 weeks ago and the pain remains raw.
We have adopted since a rescue Bengal, Odin of legendary fame. He is a 3 year old large brown spotted male, overweight and awkard at times. Odin has needed a great deal of support to adjust to his new home. He has been living in the partner's study and received a great deal of 1:1 support, protecting him from the "Crown of thorns developments" He is now catching up and has become my partner's new friend - for me I have bites and scratches that are still not healing well. It does not matter.
I still miss Bast and the TB has become necessary again. I am now trying to contend with the aftermath of the work pollution. I was (gererously) paid for by my work insurer to attend a psychiatric assessment.
Apparently I have been pushed over the line after 4 years of discrimination and abuse. The diagnosis is really difficult as it is permanent - BPAD2. It hurt to even right that down, I was simply trying to handle PTSD for what my work has intentionally done - it is truly fabulous to conceptualise that this can happen.
I have developed panic for the 1st ever time and am not coping well, anything that happened or is related has become a trigger. The horror just goes on and on.
Bastless and Odin
