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a bit about what has been happening

a bit about what has been happening

hi everyone

I was posting in the carers thread and decided to jump over here too - I am supporting my 23 year old son with his anxiety but I am not always doing so great myself, not just because I worry about him but I lost my youngest son in 2015, he would be 21 last month.

It is a real struggle some days. Some days I just want to scream, and be angry at him, but I can't be angry at him, it was not his fault. i feel like a terrible mother for getting angry at him. Other days I want to cry and cry. I look at photos of him and I think about him growing further into adulthood, a partner, children, and that will never happen for him, his life was cut too short and I'm always thinking about what things would be life if he was still here.

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@soul That's right - so much was lying ahead for him so young.

Older son is ok, got sent home from hospital with no real answers though. He is ok, health wise is a bit better. This week he got offered a new job - has been given time to decide but I think he will love it if he decides to accept it.

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Glad things are looking up for your son. Are you feeling a bit better today @lovemyboys?

My kids are the most precious things to me. I remember saying to my ex- husband once that if either of them needed an organ transplant, would he donate his. He said he'd have to think about it. I would not hesitate for a second. I'd give them my heart if that's what they needed.

Are there any special things you do to help you in your grief?

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@lovemyboys So I would, i'd give everything to have T back. Today I went to the cemetery to visit him.

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He's in you heart @lovemyboys. I'd like to think that it gets easier over time but I can't see how. The loss of a child especially under the circumstances that you experienced must be the worst thing to happen.

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It hurts everyday @soul There is a giant tyler said hole in our lives that will never be patched up

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😥❤️ @lovemyboys

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One day we will meet again ❤

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Hope you've had some nice moments today @lovemyboys

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J bought over dinner which was just lovely and he did an excellent job

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Dinner that he prepared himself or takeaway? 😆 @lovemyboys

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