not coping

Everything just feels tiring, lonely and overwhelming atm sis @Sans911 ive been missing you but i know its been tough for you as well. I really appreciate you sitting with me 💜

I'm sorry I've not been here for you @outlander. But I'm hearing you now, and sitting with you.

I've had similar feelings to you so, so many times. Sometimes it just feels like an incredibly awful roller coaster ride. Perhaps that's why I don't like roller coasters - resembles my life too much.

I'm having some additional problems myself this week. I'm having to make a very difficult decision as to whether I'm ready to work. And perhaps I'm not. I'm way too anxious about things going wrong, and me falling apart in a big heap.

Sorry, didn't mean to make this about me.

Are things settling down for your gut at all?

Your always with me even when your not @Sans911

I knew youd have been in this position with the rollercoaster emotions. It really sucks. Im definently not a fan of rollercoasters at all either!

Thats not an easy decision at all. Im sure theres lots of things going through your mind weighing it up. Do you have a few days to think about it still?

You havent made it about you either. A conversation goes both ways👍👍

Um yes and no.. atm its still pretty uncomfortable but i havent had a severe 'think i should go to ed' sort of cramp for about a week so that's a good start. Theres still lots of adjusting to be done though and its very time consuming working out what I cant/can have. Ive worked out i cant have too much of anything with dairy even if its lactose free.
A cupcake with lactose free ingredients and a dairy free hot choc mix with lactose free milk (on separate days) were to much. Ive had to just have a max of 3 teas in a day as well.

Have you managed to get in touch with a dietician yet @outlander? I know if your gp does a comprehensive care plan, you can get up to 5 sessions with either a dietician, psychologist, physiotherapist and other specialists.

I meant to say to some time ago my mum was put on a FODMAP diet. It's essentially an elimination diet for some weeks so the gut can settle. You can find about it online though. And gradually foods are reintroduced & it something triggers a flare up, that is removed from what you are able to eat.

I had a brief discussion today with my disability employment service provider about readiness for work. I've discussed it earlier. I was actually supposed to go into their office today, but I got confused whether it was office or phone (it alternates each fortnight). She didn't want to discuss this further on the phone, and I was getting upset so I've made a f2f appt next week. I think that because I have so much unresolved stuff bubbling under the surface it won't take much to destabilise me. I'm really disappointed though as it's just yet another thing wrong with me. I wonder when I will ever feel OK again. Like really OK. I have OK days and moments now, but they never last very long.

I havent got a referral yet @Sans911 i havent got the time to schedule an appt with the dr in amongst everything else. I see my nurse next week i think it is and the gp has to come in at the end so i coukd ask then. Thats ifi dont have to cancel.

I have heard of that diet but didnt look into it. Its hgard enough trying ti di th ast for myself but also have to think of pop. I dont have the energy to cook 2 meals a night. Atm its basically just vegies and some sort of protein for pop and i just pick out what i feel up for.


I dont think theres another thing wrong with you. I see it here all the time people struggling to go back to work, keep jobs or try and manage going to work because of the way their history has influenced their brain to function
I struggle with my workload all. The. Time. I dont have any choice but to do it but i also know if i was to stop working i would find it very difficult to start up again and would take me a while to be ready again.
Theres nothing wrong with you, its hard and also scary too to try and find the right path to take.

Sorry about the spelling :face_with_rolling_eyes:🤦‍♀️😬

We're you nodding off?? 😴😴 Because that's something I do sometimes.

It's always hard when you have to cook for someone else. Can you eat eggs at all? Veges are good though as well. I can only imagine how frustrating it must be to find something suitable to eat, and to suffer continually with pain.

@outlander

I can have eggs and its something pop likes so ive been making those abit @Sans911

And yeh i was nodding of abit oopsy 😯😬🤣 @Sans911