not coping

i have to get the treatment every 6 months ongoing for an unknown amount of time @Snowie @Eve7 eventually it may be every 3 months but hopefully not in the next few years

i hope your lunch went/goes well @Eve7

thank you everyone @Eve7 @Appleblossom @Snowie

its hard watching life just change in front of you but have no control over it.
i thought the new job i had would be good but im just constantly being moved off the cases where i can use some skills to people who im sure are greatful but it just feels like babysitting. im still in all the company group chats for original clients with all the new upcoming training but because im limited i cant do the cases anymore but theyll use me as casuals. just keep being replaced.

i dont even know if i want to go through with ndis anymore. i dont want to be known for having mental health but at this rate its the better option for applying since that is what my advocate specialises in and is confident in being able to get it and validates that i need the support. going through all my medical records and past letters etc from some of the most traumatic times of my life isnt what i envisioned in trying to get the right letters and support. makes me question whether support is really worth it when i have to go back through this to get it.

Hey @outlander ,

Sorry to hear the battles. At this point, what do you think would be helpful to get you through? I hear how tough this is and how you have battling for so long.

Hugs to you. (I've missed you)

i dont know @tyme

i even started hypnotherapy to try another form of therapy.
i need the support but i dont want people delving through my past to get it. i shouldnt have to prove all of this when the records are right in front of them