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Coming to terms with reality

Coming to terms with reality

Hi Readers, i am suffering from "mental health issues" and it is an ongoing, daily battle. I am pretty much constantly wrestling with the thoughts going on in my mind. And my psychical life seems too be suffering for it. (There is a huge difference between physical and mental ) something is definitely not right! So each day I'm waking up and going about my routine. And over the last few days, weeks and months. I have been noticing changes in my mentality toward myself, others and life. And some questions such as, what is my life about? And what should my objectives be? Have arisen... of course like we all are, I'm subject too making decisions... and there has been the same options in front of me time and time again for months on end. And it becomes rather draining and mundane. And i feel myself going around in circles like something simple just ain't connecting.

I enjoy writing, art, music. And peace of mind... walking, reading, meditation. Taking care of myself. Socialising. Etcetera. Getting ahead, getting in front. Planning, dreaming and so on. And do my best to look after myself. While accepting that it can only ever be so much.

But there just something not quite right. And I'm suffering for it on a daily basis. And I'm tired and fed up with going through the same stuff everyday. And in all honesty. Alot of my suffering comes from prospective and thought processes.

Does anyone wanna talk with me about some things that might help? In particular dealing with people no matter who they are. Can be very stressful and cause lots of procrastinating about pros and cons. In particularly people who i think about reaching out to for support. Because of dilemmas dramas and social dynamics. And picking up on things that "aint really happening" "gut feelings type of stuff " "intuition" that type of thing. And enjoying time with people is great! I just tend to be overly preoccupied with symptoms to be worried about socialising sometimes "Symptoms which involves others"

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@Appleblossom my mind is constantly fighting against the conclusions I'm coming to ... -i am not real happy about what I'm dealing with each day *mentally and physically going through... so, i find a culprit to blame... it's wearing me down big time.

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@Appleblossom@Bunniekins

I'm constantly cycling between fright, fight and flight modes... and it is wearing me down big time...

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@eudemonism

Sorry to hear that you are struggling with persecutory thoughts...

I do not have lived experience of anything like that...

Have you read any of the threads in relation to schizophrenia on this website?

type in schizophrenia in the toolbar and it should come up with all of the different threads ...

you might find a thread where someone else has asked this question....there might be answers that you can relate to..

Hoping that you find something to give you some peace of mind sooner rather than later...

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@Appleblossom@Bunniekins

I'm constantly cycling between fright, fight and flight modes... and it is wearing me down big time... perhaps I'm frightened of the system and what they've done... perhaps I'm frightened about who I've become... perhaps I'm frightened about being lost... perhaps I'm frightened that they'll never leave me alone... perhaps I'm frightened the control they have over me... perhaps I'm frightened about what everyone has ever done to me... perhaps I'm frightened about being a victim for the rest of my life...

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I cycle between those fight flight freeze thoughts too. It is a waste of energy and life.

I wish mine would go away, but I am learning to accept them and banish them to my inner naughty corner. I struggled with the injustice of my situation too. Life is not really fair. @eudemonism All I can do is say hi, try and validate some of your pain and walk a little of the journey with you.

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Finding, applying and honing a language of feelings has been crucial for my journey.

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I hope you have paid your bills and got your fertiiser @eudemonism.

I can see that you have been having another of those really questioning days - I hope the evening is better for you.

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Hi @Appleblossom Thank you for cheering on from the sidelines also - first time back at work done - very tired now but that was to be expected.

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@eudemonism Oh Eude I wish I could take you out for a drive in my clapped out car to the beaches around here and go for a soothing walk along the shoreline. Just listening to the waves and the tide go in and out. Have a cup of coffee (if I could as I am too paranoid to eat at cafes and restaurants) it would have to be back at my house with you and commiserate my dear friend Eude. You are not alone xxxxxx

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