Talking about not talking

Feeling yuck, useless, good for nothing, idiotic, weak and cowardly

Ciao 4 now.

I'm delivering my version of your plane plants to you @TheVorticon. I'm sending them over because you help me feel understood, heard and cared for, which to me says you're definitely not useless, idiotic, good for nothing etc.

It doesn't really matter what I think about you at the moment though, because it matters that you're feeling it yourself and those feelings suck a lot.

I hope there's something that's good about your day today (even if it is just in eating Mario Bros chocolate cupcakes maybe).

hello @TheVorticon

hope that those dreadful feelings have passed

I agree with @CheerBear

sometimes we just dont want to be placated....just listened to and heard....allowed to get through the mess knowing that others have noticed and care about us

here with you talking about not talking

I'm feeling so bad tonight. Opened up a blank email to send to a helpline, but there's no words. Dunno what they'd be able to help with anyway. Maybe I'm the embodiment of one of those old "I can't even" memes.

@CheerBear I feel like the toy is a bit too personal to share details about on here. But he's soft, stuffed with a combination of plastic beans and stuffing, has had to be stitched up in a couple of places over the years, has quite a bit of flattened/pilled "fur", and he was named after a TV/comic character who he looks nothing like aside from being the same animal species. Because apparently that's how little Vorticon chose names at the time.

Music varies a bit - at the moment I'm into nightcore remixes of pop/rock/dance songs. Sped up and dance-able stuff.

Type of movie - anything with a plot really. If I'm watching it alone, I usually pick something with a bit of emotional interest, so that can mean 'chick flicks' (even really terrible ones that I would NEVER admit to watching!) sometimes. Otherwise sci fi is tops. Comedy if I'm watching it with someone else. Things just aren't as funny when watching alone.

Hopefully that satisfies some curiosity

Haha I've sometimes thought similarly - based on nothing - that we might be living in the same general area... Until you started talking about it being cold on days that were warm for me!