Self destructing

Hi @Eden1919, sounds like things are really tough for you and I'm really sorry to hear how much you're struggling. You did really well putting your message out onto the forum to seek support from the other members.

Are you safe tonight?

If you are feeling that you might be unsafe tonight, it's really important that you contact one of the crisis support numbers. I'll put them in this post as a reminder.

Here are those numbers:

Lifeline 13 11 14, they also have a crisis chat support if you don't want to talk on the phone and you can access that here.

Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467 or online chat here.

Beyondblue 1300 78 99 78 or online chat here.

I'm hoping you'll be able to reach out to someone tonight for support.

@Former-Member I think i am safe for tonight I am just feeling really hopeless and i dont know where to go from here. like i dont feel like there is anywhere to go. I am trying everything i can think of and more but nothing seems to be working. and i am sinking so deep into myself i cant feel the outside anymore all i can do is focus on food and my eating issues. i cant sleep i cant eat i cant relax and i cant make my head stop. everything is triggering me and everything hurts so deeply inside i feel like i am completely out of control. and i cant stop now they wont let me stop and it makes me want to cry. i just dont know what to do anymore.

I am glad to hear that you are safe tonight @Eden1919, but perhaps it might be an idea to still contact one of the support numbers I provided to you. They will be able to talk you through your current moment and help you ground yourself for the evening. I also encourage you to think about what other strategies you can use to help soothe you, even for just a little distraction. Don't be afraid to reach out to the crisis support services if things get too overwhelming tonight.

i am trying everything i can think of to self soothe but it is just not working right now. i dont know. maybe it is just me maybe i am just defective. either way i still feel like it is hopeless. i have not had a good experience with those types of supports in the past sadly.

I hear how hard you're trying @Eden1919. Keep up the good work!

Perhaps some of the members have some suggestions they could offer?

@Faith-and-Hope @Mazarita @outlander

i am just really out of control right now and i feel like something bad is giong to happen some time in the near ish future i am trying but i cant seem to grab a hold of myself.

@outlander I am trying all my DBT skills and distractions and self soothing things. like i have done exercise and i have been reading and tried watching tv and listening to music and so many other things. but nothing is helping all i can think about is food and not eating.