-Enigma-

Thanks @Former-Member I appreciate your good wishes. I am glad your daughter came home and wanted to talk.

Glad you still have Milo @oceangirl sad he has needed so many admissions but at least he is in your hands.

@Former-Member I am very very tired with it all, a bit burnt out. I need to maintain an optimistic outlook and we have good things on the horizon, but still deeply deeply tired.

I will keep my eye out for that book, but it also might be triggering for me as I have not had a good relationship with a man yet. I must be in the too hard basket.

I loved Dune and read Sc-fi a lot when I was younger. @Former-Member I especially love it as it shows a culture adapting to a water stressed planet and we live in a water stressed country.

@Former-Member Good morning -Enigma- :)xxx My daughter is home and feeling well thank you. The hospital stay did her a power of good and she is determined to make the necessary changes in her life to continue along that path :):). Isn't it funny about the sun how we need just a bit of it but not too much. I have a stupid skin cancer which will have to be cut out possibly in hospital.... not looking forward to that :(. Misspent youth my doctor called it .... oh well at least now I stay out of the sun.

Hoping you are feeling better soon. Love greenpea xxx

There was a movie and a mini series based on Dune and they were both terrible. Stick with the book or hte audible multiple character fully casted audio drama.

Hello dear @Appleblossom - your post above to me could of been me writing about how I am feeling. It does become very draining over time, I so empathise. Good to read that you have good things planned on the horizon. What I have found helped me was to keep a rountine of "normalcy" as much as possible (even when in reality my life circumstances were far from it). Most days I wake up not wanting to do anything, so have had to push myself to my volunteering, walks, going to different events, even shopping etc. I have felt better as a result - but did find myself feeling drained each morning having to repeat "that push" every day. I would dig a hole for myself if I gave into that tiredness - sometimes of life - so yes you are right we must keep optimistic as those good moments experienced by these efforts to act against how I felt has been worth it. The good in life is there - I fight to not let the not so good events shadow it completely and for me that has been the key to enable me to keep moving forward under difficult circumstances and grief.

Are you still going to your singing choir events? How is the zoo volunteering going? Self care is so important right now and I am glad you have supports in place - what you are going through I can appreciate the gravity of and how hard it can be. Here for you my friend xxxx

Thats wonderful news that your daughter is feeling better @Bunniekins, and is determined to keep it that way. The latter will build the resilience to succeed - and with the love of her mother and good professional care she has every chance at life. I am the same as you - I fear sun cancers and had been wearing sunscreen every time I ventured outdoors. I did not realise how sick that could make me. My doctor suggested 10-15 mins in the midday sun exposing as much skin as possible (and legal lol), without sunscreen to absorb the natural vitamin D together with huge dosages of this vitamin compounded which I start next week. It will be so wonderful to get a boost of energy back and feel alive again. Please keep me updated to the progress of your daughter. Are you going okay also?

Hi @Former-Member - I thought I did see Dune on the screen quite a few years back and it did lose my interest. Glad to read it's nothing like the book - the movie adaptations never usually are. I will see if I can get the books in paper back - I prefer this to reading on screen. The audio version sounds good too - may try and google and track this down. I enjoy audio books. I use to listen to quite a lot whilst sewing - the latest one was the Anne Frank story. How are you going today?

Hi @oceangirl - how is Milo today? Hope he is resting comfortably and not in too much pain. With your loving care I have no doubt he will be back to good health in no time. If I was a dog and could hand pick an owner it would be you hands down!! Seriously lol. You are such a gentle, kind nurturing soul - you definitely chose the right career path to study in my humble opinion. Look forward to catching up 😘

Good afternoon @outlander - I hope you feel asleep last night with pleasant thoughts. You deserve some peace and the future will bring you many good things. But I know how you feel - it would be nice to feel better now!! I hope the day is showing you some more pleasant moments. I am also waiting to feel better and for things with my daughter to fall into place and wish it could happen soon - that is my elusive dream. She doesn't seem healthy herself. She is still asleep and went to bed at 11:00pm last night. It is now nearly 2:00pm. A bit of a worry. But I am trying to keep a rountine of normalcy going........

I am off to do some more cleaning now as my brother comes tomorrow. It has turned very cold here presently so am not looking forward to venturing out in it tomorrow night. I do have to toughen up - I am a fair weather person but do love the rain. Speak again soon and sending lots of love to all xxx ❤️

@Former-Member You are such a sweetie -Enigma- 🙂 xxx I am doing pretty well actually. Feeling a bit flat today I think because of the cold and blustery weather but not really complaining as I prefer the cold to the heat. Am rugged up with 4 layers on!!!!!! Brrrrr!!!!! Here is a bit of news my other son is coming out from Europe again today!!!! for another visit. I think he got homesick and booked another ticket after his last visit last year lol. So yes that should perk me up a bit 😄

Have a lovely afternoon and evening -Enigma- xxxxxxx love greenpea 🙂

That's great news @Bunniekins about your son coming for another visit from Europe!!!! I didn't know you had another son!!! You do surprise me lol. Sounds like you have close bonds with all your children which is very special. I do have a bond with my daughter but she will never open up to us very much. But is pleasant at the moment which is a good thing.

What do you do together when your son visits? Sounds exciting my friend and I have no doubt it will perk you up no end - keep me updated as I will be interested to hear how it all goes. ❤️

Hi @outlander - yay, you slept. That is a good start to the day for sure 😃. Actually I lyed in this morning which was naughty - so I am about to catch up on the cleaning. I feel a bit better for it today, must of needed to catch up on some rest.

It will be a big sacrifice for me to venture out tomorrow - I will probably be whinging about it internally all day tomorrow lol. But it's my brothers birthday and I want him to feel important - can't let him down.

I think my daughter is here for awhile now - she was meant to move out but her other job did not turn out. Which is such a shame as working full time was helping her. Not sure what the future holds there - a long story. I love her but we are closer when living apart - she stresses me to the hilt, that's why I need to keep busy and distracted. Not an easy situation - just have to hold onto the hope it will all work out for the best. In the meantime doing the latter is all I can do.

I think if I continue to show strength and normalcy that will help her - it certainly is helping me move forward otherwise I would be in a not so good place. I can't stand being there, I like to feel content with life and when I push I usually feel a whole lot better by the end of the day. Must go and clean now but will catch up shortly. Enjoy the day my friend ❤️

Modelling strength and normalcy regardless of feelings is often what we mums need to do.

Yes I know the "push" self out of bed into a planned productive day.

Thanks for being so understanding.

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Yes, the audio version has a brilliant cast reading the parts of all of the character dialogue. I highly recommend it, it is an audible exclusive title.