NOT COPING AT MOMENT

Hi @SCORPION. I've only recently been on the forum and I don't know your story but I relate about being heavily down on yourself at times, even to the point of feeling pretty much a complete moral failure. Even if there's some truth to the mean arguments we use against ourselves, I'm betting neither of us really deserve the extreme harshness of those accusing thoughts in our head. I hope some kinder thoughts and feelings come your way today.

i relate

did u ring A friend or family member?

It is a hard act to decide how much to carry alone or to "share". Can you arrange professional counselling? Though I may have a whinge about them there are definite advantages in their detached position from your life and the purpose that they are completely at your service. We have to learn to see through flattery and superficial identifications .. but if you get a good one .. worth its weight ..

My dad was a scorpio and had a big watery side. I am not heavily into astroloy but I like the idea that my watery side calms down my firey side.

i learnt to begin to look at what is right, then build on those thoughts....and that helps and its great to have a place to talk about what is difficult. i drank energy drinks earlier....have to breathe deep.

i find prayer helps. though ive no idea what all that is about.

i dont feel alone much the last few years.

I think it is great the way @SCORPION opened this thread about an ethical issue. I dont want to get into hypotheticals, I see them as a waste of time. This was a real lived experience and he was just open and honest.

It is amazing and sad how sometimes we are our own worst enemy.

I am not sure about the prayer thing either @ozmaninireland but i like the humility of many of the people on this forum. Not presuming a correct way to pray or meditate or to meet life's challenges.

We seem to be true seekers.

sometimes people sharing there theories can be interest and thought provoking. not sure what the original topic was. i let it go and let the conversation evolve into whatever....i feel free if i have no agenda or fear or what is to come.....i keep away from family as they dont really understand me much of the time.

its good to not be expert at prayer, walking on water, its easier when the frozen water-ice is thicker then a few inches. lol