Good Morning!

@saturnzoon , ohh hugs my friend 🧡

@Appleblossom my wonderful friend 🧡 loving this community, soo caring

@oceangirl , still raining 🌧 up here my sister

Hello @Emelia8 , @TAB , @MDT , ,,, @@BlueBay @Former-Member 😀

Good morning All,

I'm sorry to hear about your having troubles @saturnzoon . The support from everyone is really good to read. I know what you mean about being jinxed. On one of hardest days, recently, I needed to get to the chemist desperately. I finally gathered courage, walked out to car & tyre was flat. First time ever! @tyme I think mentioned 'snowball' That is exactly what it feels like. I don't know why these things all fall down on us at once. (Sorry we have not spoken much, I hope I am not being intrusive - I hope you get banking sorted ASAP)

Hello @StuF thankyou for reply . No luck with doc & earlier appointment. It is good in a way, that I am learning to go slower, as it is very expensive "medication' - I actually am not sure it is on the PBS or officially a medication.

This is HUGE problem. Personally, I was scared to try it (flashbacks from youth 😊) It is only C B D - I even did a drug test & I was clear - as I wanted to know if I would be legal to drive.

It has given me amazing relief, the anxiety nearly stops (the really bad panic) it's like, I can feel my trauma, without feeling upset about it.

NOW - this needs to be a MEDICATION easily accessible, & affordable to everyone, imo.

It is always good to hear from you, & I hope things are good for youx

Hello @Appleblossom you are beautiful❤️ oh, I am excited you know handpans. New to me. My man friend, (partner I think) bought it 4 me. I agreed to pay him back. It is magical meditation tool. Very difficult to play for me, tapping the notes is skill. It feels creative & intuitive, different. I hope you are going good.

@MDT aka Hams. I like your new handle. Distinguished 😊. I was interested that you wrote CBT etc were bandaids. (Idk) I really like how you know what you want. Your post made me think of this book. I have not been able to read for 10+ years due to trauma. This is the first book, I literally want to read everyday. It asks reader questions about their trauma. I learnt cpl days ago, that my attachment style is called Disorganised. Maybe the book is helpful to you or not. I recommend to anyone who wants to learn more about their trauma.

Hey @TAB Hotel California....

Such a lovely place ....

Hello @Shaz51 sorry, I forgot you☹️🦄 big sorry hug x

@everone may you ... may we have calm

@creative_writer xx

The book is called

The Complex PTSD Workbook

By Arielle Schwartz

nice to see you @StanD (ex roomie) and thanks for sharing 😎

Hey there @creative_writer 🌺

How are you doing?
not being here means I’ve not been going too well in all areas, but I wanted to say hi 🌺

Yeah @Glisten .. I feel like it should be a few days ago, in terms of keeping pace at the moment.
hope you’re doing alright

Hello @StanD 😎😁

Hey there @Snowie 🌺

thanks so much for asking, it’s super kind of you. Sorry for delay…I haven’t been keeping up very well at all.
ptsd and anxiety have come crashing in the front door like the bloody unwelcome f*cks they are due to some additional stressors directly impacting on survival…the replacement ventilators (third lot) are faulty, and intermittently failing overnight so I am having periods while asleep where I’m not breathing at all (I don’t notice because I have brain damage to the area that controls breathing, oxygen/carbon dioxide monitoring, and depth of sleep), and I’m waking up feeling unwell and with low oxygen levels. The response from the company was “speak to your doc”…really? How is that going to keep me alive ..how about you give me my tens of thousands of dollars back and I go buy a ventilator that will not contribute to deoxygenating brain injury overnight?
sorry… it’s not that easy sometimes taking on corporate giants without any legal, social, or other support…at times I feel like an ant under the foot of an elephant, holding it up so I don’t get crushed.
anyway, amongst the other crud going on, there’s the straw that breaks the camels back, so to speak.
Not to worry. I’m trying my hardest, that’s all I can do.
Not a very good peer guide right now… hehe

I hope you’re doing ok 🌺💜