Good Morning!

I'm a mess @Sans911, having trouble breathing with anxiety all day.Went for a walk to get away from my mother early this morning because my anxiety has been up, yesterday she talks about family that I constantly say I don't want to hear it as it triggers me,she still does it.That agitated I just want to be on my own.
On my walk this morning ,I was 4 KMs or more from the car with hills when she rings and tells me she needs the doctor or ambulance.The way she sounded I thought it was a emergency.I walk but I cannot run,back to my car,no reception due to remote area, with having attacks of anxiety all the way.I ring her when I'm at the car to see she's ok and she says she will call the doctor.Rush the drive home.Get home and she's ironing and packing a f***** suitcase for hospital.Ask her if she's rang the dr ,she hasn't.I ring,and she cant see him til past three o clock and she's ok with that.I was so angry @Sans911 and if that sounds selfish I don't care that she put me through that under false pretenses.We then argued,and I got dressed and took off shopping as she started making out I was abusing her.I said I was up the bush minding my own business.In reflection,I wish I told her to get the ambulance because the stress of walking back to the car was too much.She got back from the doctor a hour ago eating pizza so she's not too bad.I am not feeling positive @Sans911 like everyone about my life,have SC thoughts badly this afternoon.

Thanks @Determined

Oh dear @Former-Member ..can relate to that sorta re olds its like bits of them become amplified as they get older at least mine dont bother me that much well unless around them

Hi @BambiFawn 😀 Well atheists are people too.. I used to rag on my mother terribly as a teen re her beliefs. Well at least she didn't try and force it well except as small kids and Sunday School maybe. Have a vague recollection that I wasn't christened because she felt that it was meaningless without knowledge Well hoped puss liked the treats and yes we cats are terrible narcissists.. comes with being boo full ... lol 😸

Re helper dogs etc cancer dogs etc @Determined re animals sensing stuff