Maybe I should leave

@BlueBay It sounds a bit like your brain is all full up with big feelings right now, is that right? I have a rule for myself that when my brain is flooded, I don't try to make any decisions because I know that the big feelings flood the thinking part of my brain such that it doesn't work. Thus I'm wondering if perhaps now isn't the best time for you to be trying to figure things out. Maybe now is the time to just let the big feelings wash over you. What do you think?

Can you contact the CAT team? or your gp, did i read somehow that you promised that you would to your gp? im not coping so well today either and not sure im much help. could you get somoene to come home so you're not alone which might help you be safer? @BlueBay

stay my wonderful friend @BlueBay

we are with you holding you hands , would you like to talk or sit here together on the beach , it is sunny at the moment

@Former-Member,

maybe you're right @Phoenix_Rising

i think i will try to ride this out and wait.

it is huge emotion and a wave of mixed anger, sadness, guilt and depression, darkness

thank you xxoo

thanks @Former-Member i can't get hold of my GP. i tried the CAT team but no answer.

i will stay home , my hubby should be home soon. at least then i am not home alone.

i hope you will be okay

hugs xxxooo

i am sorry @utopia that you are struggling so much.

I don't know what to say

sending you some hugs xxxooo

@BlueBay

Sorry you are feeling bad today and that there is no one around for you to talk to today. Maybe it's a good thing the CAT team didn't answer if they are not helpful. Have they been helpful in the past? Is your GP okay to talk to? I have terrible down days too. Don't leave. Can you find something you are passionate about that gets you worked up and you can fight for? I find anger can be a good tool to work against my depression sometimes. I get so angry about some things that it motivates me to take action. Some people say anger isn't a good thing but, if used constructively, it can be very motivating.

Hope you can pull yourself out of this and feel better soon

Hi @BlueBay and All,

Just wanted to let you know that I am moderating now until 8pm today. Will keep an eye out for you BB and I can see that you are well supported by friends here. As you know email contact with us is available if things go downhill today.

The CAT teams are very busy, especially on weekends, so generally I would advise Lifeline or Beyond Blue for immediate counselling helpline support.

Take care of yourself,

Frog

Thankyou @Former-Member

I am having double thoughts like 1. should i SH yes I can, I can do that quite easily and then the other thought 2. no don't do that your kids will be upset. then i go back to plan 1. then back to plan 2.

it is so crazy in my head.

at the moment i am home with hubby, he has come home. BUT i haven't told him how i am feeling. i struggle to tell him.

Frog i need to stay busy, i need to talk, i don't know what to talk about. i can't make final decisions at the moment. i wish there was a hospital bed right now but today there isn't. I am seeing my GP on tuesday morning and he will call. maybe i shld see my GP tomorrow morning instead of tuesday.

Frog what do i do?? i am sooo lost today