when is it time for hospital

Hi @outlander

The crackers and lemonade are fine while your tummy is upset - and the main thing is to keep off the dairy for a day or so - but I sure hope you enjoyed your proper dinner and you are feeling the better for it

I do understand about some things that are written. It's okay that people do - but there are times when I find it really hard and withdraw - I was triggered some weeks back - but that was the only time I think - but there are times when I understand that people are allowed to write what they write but it can throw a spanner through the works for some other people - so I am careful when I am vulnerable - and yes - time does not release us from the things that can upset us in a number of different ways

And this is okay and normal - and right now you have just come out of hospital and before that you were in a really bad place - I could see that things could not go on for you the way they were and I did not have any trouble at all keeping up with your posts and understanding - in fact - I read your posts most days even when I wasn't replying - just glad you had finally got the help you needed

Yeah - I get it that you want to keep the SA private and you were badly let down by someone - I forget who - and your mother was messaging you and her bf was having his say and no one was listening to you - this was not good - so I really get it

So wisely you need to pick who you tell and you need to feel comfortable about it - but I am glad you have told someone because I think this is the main cause of all the other things that have gone sour - and there was too much responsibility

It doesn't affect me now but when I was little I had some trouble with a couple of teenage girls who gave me a hard time when they were baby-sitting me - and my mother didn't believe me - and I was spanked. However - on the other side of this - I don't think I was ever sent back to be looked after by those girls again - so sometimes we have to come clean about things - harder when it's SA - true -

Pick and choose your time and person and keep your eye open for the person who will be able to give you the help you need to get over this and live your life with less angst. Actually - I wonder if any one can get over SA - but like other trauma it is possible to live around it - and as I have not had such a horrible thing happen I do know what it's like to be in a position of being small and helpless - it's not a good place at all

I think you are doing brilliantly - you have had a tough life and you are mature and kind beyond your years - a great gift certainly - but you have had to pay for it

You write well and I am glad you are looking for another course - if you are studying medical terminolgy you might be able to become a receptionist for a medical centre - that would be a great career opportunity if you were able to do it and you are going the right way

Dec

Hi @outlander

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@outlander wrote:
Hi @Owlunar @Former-Member ill write a better reply soon still out being busy

Ive just got a reminder from my victim's of crime counsellor asking to confirm or cancel the appointment i had scheduled fot tomorrow
Now what do u guys think
1. Go back to her even though she snapped at me
Or
2. Cancel her altogether and see how my new psych goes
Or
3. Go to both psychs as they are for two separate things

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I didn't know the victims of crime counsellor snapped at you - that was not appropriate

When I was seeing my last therapist late last year I started contradicting her if I felt what she suggested was not the way things were for me - and she respected this - so -

I would go back and tell your psyche this - she had no need to snap - and if she felt she did then she needs to know - perhaps she will be the best thing that has happened to you

You need to stick with Victims of Crime - you need to deal with that part of your past and it is not at all easy - this I know

Dec [sending hugz]

If they are good at their job outlander there should be a non threatening environmental so you feel safe disclosing this trauma.I don't know if talking helps,but sometimes you need to get someone else's view on it to understand and take away the victim blaming guilt.You have to deal with it for your sake,so you can move on in life.I know the trauma is hard to deal with .💖

Good Morning Claire @outlander 🙂 {I hope it's still morning by the time I post this! :)}

I feel for your confusion and fear. I think it is important to tell. I often feel like there's a little girl trapped in my mind, she died in there and has been rotting there my whole life. And there is another entity that hates her, hates her stupidity, her cowardice - why didn't she tell! I think you have an opportunity to let some of the negitivity out. I think you have the courage. Snap back, use that anger to force it out.

I'm sorry if this post is wrong. I also know that it can be impossible. Everyone can say everything, but you can only do what you can do. Keep trying. don't give up.

I hope your feeling better today Your keeping yourself so very busy 🙂

I don't know the rules of Doctors, but I don't think you should say anything more than what you want to say to anyone. If you choose to disclose one thing to one Doctor and another thing to another, I think that should be allowed. It's more than hard to disclose anything at all! Do it your way, that's the only right way.

Lots and loads of love to you