Ok, i really just need to apologise firstly, i started this post and then not really added to it. i have been reading everything tho, but i have had some other things going on.
@Alessandra1992I have been trying to talk myself into reaching out to my other friends, but i can't seem to get past something stopping me in my head.... but you are right i do need to be a friend to have friends, the ones i used to party with, are some who have responded back to a couple of messages i sent out, but i am avoiding them a little bit, i need a bit more time getting my head right i thinks.
@Samarathank you for your reply, i knew when writing this post it was going to get some response, as i was sure i wasn't the only one feeling how i was/am, your answer well my take on what you have written is to keep myself focused on what i want to do in my life, and i will probably always have that one or two friends who stick by me.
@CherryBombI understand what you mean, i have another mate who i have known all my life, and he has his issues, he has been diagnosed with depression, so i know he sort of understands, except he can't quite grasp the concept of bi-polar, i think, like he gets the depressed parts, but then when i am up up UP!!! he thinks that is a good thing, because i am happy and carefree so to speak, he doesn't get the negative of it.
@Former-MemberLJ moving around and further away would certainly make friends harder to keep, the one mate i have at the moment lives about 45-50 min drive just to see him, so it's not just around the corner sort of thing, i know a few of my other friends who live in the same sort of area, or in other far away suburbs, have noticed that friendships do drop off, i am guilty of it myself....... to my friends who moved to nearly an hour away, i didn't see them as often as i could have. so i have created some of this isolation myself.....
@PeppiPattyi am grieving about losing my friends, well instigating the loss so to speak, and i am taking time and trying to get a good grasp on everything, i hope you are doing better with everything that has been going on for you
@LinmercHi linmerc, it is one good thing about life that friends will hopefully continue to drift in and out of it, i was just curious and by the response from everyone, i think it is definately something i need to be aware of is, that i do need to make more of a effort with perhaps old friends, and be open if any new friends come into my life. The people i am going to the footy with are all old friends, so no new ones, just people i haven't seen for awhile. I don't feel punished, like it is almost like a punishment, but i don't feel punished for having a Mi, i punish myself because i allowed myself to get so sick, by not taking care of myself. i like this "Friends that matter, don't mind and those that mind, don't matter."
@GothMum@SamaraBeing a guy, i never really understood what that used to mean, the clicky group etc, it is definately more common amongst females, however, in my later years, looking back, i was into sports, so i hung around my mates who played sports, so without even realizing it back then, we do go for a clicky group,
@SimpleAsThisI just have to say, i really like what you have drawn/painted thank you very very much for posting it 🙂
@SCORPIONThank you for sharing my friend, i know it would not have been easy typing it out, but maybe it has helped a little? serious trauma, is life changing, i know a couple of friends of mine who have had some pretty serious injuries. I am really glad you have your wife to help support you through it.
You sound very much like me, the way you described yourself, make friends from strangers etc etc, it would have been quite a shock to the system waking up in trauma, and then spending the time that you spent there, ketamine is a tranquiliser it would have kept you quite floaty feeling in the head, a good one for that sort of pain recovery management i have heard.
I really would have thought they would have at least guided you/informed you a lot gentler then oh this is for that and for this, and oh your going home, it's one thing i have found with everyhospital etc, they don't tell you the patient anything, until it's like ok you have 5 mins to clear the room. i wish they would keep patients more up to date then what they do currently.
i again thank you for sharing
it didn't bore me one bit
Again Thank you to everyone who has posted i apologise if i missed replying to people
