SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

Hi @Kurra, means a lot that you checked in on me this morning. I forgive you for disappearing last night, it was late and I can be so slow replying. Hope you're rested today. I am ok'ish I think, mood very low but not so many suicidal thoughts, anxiety and hopelessness... just flat, having my first cuppa. Didn't want to get up but we must. Had trouble filling the kettle with the mountain of dishes in the sink so might make that a priority today. Kinda weird I can do my 1/2days Volunteering but can't keep house. Fighting the urge to quit after a couple things this week, is it worth it? Really dragging my feet but some weeks it gives me an excuse to finally take shower. Wondering what f I should try ringing S3 after yesterdays tension. Maybe he's better off without me, let it be. He hasn't answered my tx saying "we seem to have got disconnected, hope you're ok?" I'm so scared.

Hi @Former-Member what sort of volunteering do you do?

I've lived near Darwin for 17 years and moved recently down south. This will be my first winter in many years. Not sure how I'll handle it. I'm freezing already.

I'm guessing S3 is a child of yours, perhaps an adult. Sometimes I find it's best just to give mine some space and let them ring me when they choose to. Depends what the conflict is about. Hoping the situation works out for you.

@Former-Member at least you're getting out and doing something worthwhile. I'd like to do some volunteering at some stage.

@Former-Member I get cabin fever in this cold, wet weather. Not used to it. I normally isolate a lot anyway but it's gone to a new level since I moved here. Could be the climate.

Hello @CheerBear, @Former-Member, @eth, @Kurra

mr shaz gets cabin fever when it is raining , he has SAD as well as other things

sending you hugs @Former-Member my friend

Hi @Former-Member

Believe me - the world and everyone in it would not be better off without you - that is faulty thinking - you have a right to be here and make your own way in the world and enjoy the good moments - however few and far between

Adult children can be narky at times and for whatever reason your son has chosen now - no good fighting with him about it - just turn the phone off and leave him with whatever it is that drives him - he will have it anyway

And don't worry about getting passed over with a voluntary job - not worth the effort but I have had that happen myself and just do what you are doing - even 1/2 days are good -

Remember the weather plays a great part in how many people including me feel at this time of year - and wait - the sun is setting as early as it will this year - it is already what they call the winter solstice - this will be over in a few days - yes - I know that sounds as if I am counting my blessings but this helps me survive every winter

One thing I don't understand is why people - well - why you - have SI because people are narky or fail to answer your notes - people don't bother actually - you can send a bereaved person $100.00 worth of flowers and get a brief thank you - and that's all - and that's not why the flowers were sent either - so - please don't bother about that - it's not worth it

If you think your sons are better off without you - then let them think whatever - that's no reason to check out - truly - it is not - and I feel so saddened that people feel that way - more unhappy than you can think - I have always valued my own life and only wish other people could value theirs

But I feel for you - I truly do - I know you have pain and that can be hard to endure esp in the winter - try and keep the temperature in your home at a steady level of warmth if you can - and eat well -

I am thinking of you

Lots of hugs

Dec