Hi all.
I haven't read all the posts yet but wanted to say hi.
@Former-Member,
i was feeling a lot like you today and very self destructive, on the verge of maybe acting on those thoughts but got some help which have made a big difference to me coping and being a little calm for the first time in days. The support I received was basically to take the pressure off yourself. We are so hard in ourselves to be perfect but we don't ever feel like we come close to that mark. You have had so much pressure on you and you have added triple that to yourself. Let it go the best way you can....not easy I know. I happen to think you are amazing. You are not your illness but it is a part of you and some of that also brings the beauty within. Just for now there are no expectations on you but to breathe and find a way to let go of some of the inner dialogue bringing you down. I can't believe I'm writing this now as a few hours ago I was in a very dark place. I had someone talk me down to a place where I could let go of it all for a bit. It will come back but I have to find a way to bring it down again.....but it is so hard to do by yourself I know. So for now I'm giving you permission (just in case you can't give yourself permission) just to do nothing but find that thing that will help bring calm.
@Former-Member, I'm so sorry you've had such a difficult time again.
Hi @Shimmer, @Zoe7, @Shaz51.
Sorry @Zoe7 that I haven't replied to you today. It has taken a fair chunk of the day to feel human.
@Shaz51 I'm sorry you were saddened and angry with your test results and that you feel unable to do anything to make it better.
Sending loads of hugs to all 💜🤗💐🤗💜