My Hospital Stay

@utopia I took these for you while I was away...

@utopia,

that is so interesting that your body is reacting in such a way- first vomiting and then shaking. It does sound to me like emotion moving through your body.... even though you don't feel the emotions themselves all that strongly.

I remember once shaking like crazy all over, because I was so anxious.... but I actually felt the anxiety at the same time. I also remember once as a child shaking and shaking and not knowing why. It was very confusing and I didn't tell anyone about it. I don't think I felt anxious right at that time, but I'm sure I would have been anxious, if you know what I mean. I had panic attacks as a child, too.

So I think sometimes emotions can manifest as physical symptoms.... even when the emotion itself is not obvious to us, for whatever reason.

@utopia, can you try slow, deep breathing when this happens to you? You focus your entire attention on your breath. It's very calming.

I think often, when we have an emotion that we won't give ourselves permission to feel, we tend to hold our breaths. So deep breathing really helps.

I have this thing I've been doing lately, where I very gently apply pressure with my fingertips to the "sea of tranquility" pressure point in the centre of my chest. It's a Chinese medicine acupressure practice.

At the same time, I visualize my heart as a beautiful, deep red rose that is slowly unfolding and spreading it's petals. I breathing in and out deeply while I do this visualization. It only takes 5 minutes. I feel really relaxed afterwards.

Hi @utopia

You are sensitive yet - and it will happen that people will say harmless and ordinary things that will set you off - and it happens and I have found the best thing is that I need to leave the room for a few minutes

I was at a meeting - social - a while back and someone else who had lost a child started with her story - and she has told that story often and no doubt will continue too - and I can listen to someone tell such a story without a problem - but this lady hammered on and on until I got up to leave - not just the room but the whole building

I think she had her reasons - but it started to hit me in the wrong places and became too much but here's the thing - I only have to go as far away so I can't been seen and can't hear - and wait for a while - and return - we all have to have toilet breaks and that was a good time to have one

So for you - before you get the shakes - perfectly normal to get the shakes btw - find a need to leave - even if you just need to take a breather and hope that is all over when you go back

You know you have to care for yourself and you are learning more this time - so it seems to me

So take that deep breath - have a smoke - whatever - people will say what they will say and I have no doubt I tread on other people corns myself - although I rarely intend to

Are you the bug-girl - let's hope twin butterflies help

Dec

Hi my beautiful little cocky friend @utopia

I have some bad news for you - I hope you are sitting down - Simon and Alene have broken up according to Today Tonight - so Simon is on the market again. I will step back and allow you to step forward lol

I hope this news isn't too devastating for you at the moment and you are seeing more light in your days otherwise.

I miss you

Me too ..... ❣️

@utopia