Not in a good place right now.

Hi @Ellie Ellie,

I'm sorry to hear that things are so tough. Its so hard to find lasting support from anywhere. And the feeling of being abandoned is so crushing. I have been through a similar experience with a mental health nurse that let me down quite suddenly for the wrong reasons. I'm glad that you are here posting and would like to say please don't place your experiences and feelings next to someone elses for comparison. Our difficulties are each unique and worthy of each other support. You are worth the support of people here.

Its really hard to keep going when you feel so much despair but please do try to eat something as any little bit will help.

Here listening, be gentle with yourself,

LJ

Thank you LJ. I have eaten a little this afternoon, but barely enough to keep a mouse alive. When feeling unwell, I do tend to spiral into an anorexic state, but I hadn't quite recovered from the last one and now here I am at it again

At least the fire is going and it's nice and warm in here. If I didn't have the fire to keep me company, I don't know where I'd end up.

I'm glad you've posted here, you'll get support and care here. Every little bit that you can eat will help. Keep reaching out for the help that you need. Keep talking to who ever you can in the mental health services world.

LJ

Hello @Ellie

What keeps you putting one foot in front of the other, when you want to give up?

What stops you from slipping back further than you are?

What worked well today, that might not have on another day?

How did you maintain the status quo today?

What's one small thing that could happen today or tomorrow that would help?

There are solutions in your answers, and they lie with you.

I'm drinking what I have to, but I have a very limited sensation of thirst at the best of times, same with feeling the need to eat. I barely ever notice feeling hungry, even when on a long trek or after a day of strenuous exercise. Some people do a bit of work and declare they're "absolutely starving" but I never feel like they do. This makes it very easy for me to slip into not eating or drinking when I don't even feel like pulling myself out of bed. Then I loose a stack of weight, but my MH team couldn't care less. They just look at it as simply attention seeking behaviour or perhaps manipulation.

Hi Not in good place right now.

great to see you are aware of the needs around drinking and eating and that your recognise this.