overwhelmed by everything

Hey @Former-Member

I really feel for you - SO much going on it is quite overwhelming for anyone to deal with, even without a MI too. I know just what you mean about the waiting and the unknown. I am there with my 6yo, having gone through it with the older two years ago. I guess I have got a bit better at trying to park it until something I can do something about arrives. But when you know something is meant to come and a bit about it that can be horrendously difficult to park. I find it helps me then to do a bit of a mental (or even written) checklist of what might come, what my response might be and then have a bit more success parking it.

I think Sandy's right too - you have done such a great job explaining yourself about the meds and your reasoning. You are a single parent and you need to function, you have tried this and it's not working for you - it is a very reasonable argument. This is not so hard to understand. Good luck with talking that through with them. I am glad you have someone coming along to support you.

I'm glad you're going to the chiro. I am very particular about who I allow to touch me too. So when I find someone I feel comfortable with I stick with them. The whole thing sounds stress and body-memory driven. I hope the chiro can give you some lasting relief. Definitely not good to put up with for weeks on end. Good for you for tackling it ASAP this time.

It's so hard when little people are distressed at separation, it's hard to know what to do for the best and our very understandable confusion sometimes seems to add to it. I hope he settles down and starts enjoying it soon.

Keep up the good work, including taking care of you. No easy task.

Hope for a time we and our kids can thrive endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin

Thank you Sandy,

Yes that is a good idea to write it down. Then I can always give it to one of the workers at the meeting at least.

I hope my lil guy does settle. We have a good routine at kindy and i try to just ignore the behaviours as best i can to follow the routine the same way each day. it just really hurts.

LJ

today was a really horrible day. i cant speak about it but feel like my world is crashing around me and feeling so alone. people in the big world dont understand.

Dearest @Former-Member

I'm SO sorry to hear that. Sometimes others not "getting it" can be so painful and isolating, giving us a sense we are utterly alone. Finding people who do "get it" to help on our journey, especially with MI help and parenting, can be such an excruciating journey. It's had me at the brink feeling like I would go insane with fear and grief many times over my life. It sounds like Karen had a similar experience in her day.

Do you know the poem Footprints? I hope and pray that you both might have a "Footprints" experience of somehow getting through this, without even knowing how that happens, but coming through doing what you need when you need, and emerging from this long dark tunnel into a lighter kinder world for you and your children.

We are here, we all try to work at "getting it" - though even then sometimes I feel like I, at least, am grasping at straws and missing the heart of understanding.

Hope for someone who "gets it" and really helps endures...

Kindest regards,

Kristin

Thankyou,

Yeah i agree @kristin I dont always get myself and sometimes i find myself swinging from one place/idea/thought to the opposite. But i just wish sometimes they took the time to actually attempt to hear me! i met with my support worker this morning and she is lovely. She will be a great advocate for me if i need her which gives me some feelings of relief.

Everything with court is a massive mess/ or feels like it at the moment. A huge array of ridiculous/nasty and hurtful claims they are making to make me look like an extremely bad/unrealiable witness such as that I faked my need for hospitalisation and illness to delay court processes. Its just made it all so much more real how bad court is actually going to be. they also dare to say that my being abused in childhood could be why i've 'made up a story'. A friend said its just an intimidation tactic, but its working.

I feel like in a day i went backwards about a mile but trying to remember that nothing has really changed since yesterday morning or the day before? sigh! but my focus is scattered, my resolve is lost and im trembling. Medication is not helping and the side effects are just making life so much harder. But not many options in that regard.

Life goes on and i need to remember that i started this to keep my children safe.

LJ

Thankyou Karen