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Life can be a pain

OwlunarSenior Contributor27 Apr 2017, 1:44 am AEST

Life can be a pain

Oh hi - it's early on Thursday morning and high-time I went to bed

We have had a change in the weather in Melbourne - and it's cold - we have had thunder and hail and my back has been aching and I have started feeling what I feel every year about my son being in prison and dying there

So on Wednesday I didn't exactly sulk - I didn't get up until the phone rant and it was my daughter sorting out Mothers' Day - she works on Mothers Day - usually works at weekends - so I have made arrangements to see her on the preceding Thursday and hope like mad that I will not have trouble with the council help because they are changing shifts more than once a week and this has been going on for weeks

But my daughter comes first - I will not change my appointment with her

So I sorta sulked all day - well maybe not sulking but certainly I did not want to interact with anyone until I felt better - and it is nearly 2.00am and I do feel better right now - and it is time to go to bed - so I will - but I do not like the way I feel - normal I know - other people feel bad too - I get it - other people have their plans stuffed up and grieve and have pain -

So I am okay - just a bit to far to the left of okay to be okay - if that makes sense - I am going to bed now - and hope I will feel better later -

I really don't like winter - I think it's time I made plans to go away again

Dec

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OwlunarSenior Contributor19 Sept 2018, 9:42 pm AEST

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My daughter was going back to her specialist the last time I spoke to her @outlander - we usually text with each other and it's time I got in touch with her again

She made need further surgery - she has bad times more often than once a month - I went through this when I was younger than her and had a hysterectomy but they don't do that open surgery as much now - there are better procedures - I wish she would let me know what's happening with her - I guess I am the same though - I don't let her know if I am not well -

I have a pile of little presents I bought in Cairns for my family and they are wrapped up in Christmas paper - yesterday my cleaning lady thought I was getting my Christmas shopping done early - I am so awkward wrapping parcel I get my daughter to wrap Christmas presents for my great grandchildren - we all have our gifts and wrapping things isn't mine

But I will text her tomorrow to see how she is and to have coffee next week and I will find out how she is and if she is seeing the surgeon soon

btw - since I spent a few days walking in the tropics my knee feels sooooo much better - it can still lock on me in bed but I can walk further since I was warm for days

I am thinking about going back to Cairns next year - September seems to be the best month weather wise and there is so much to see up there - I would like to go in a helicopter and see the reef from lower than I did in the plane

Fantastic place - I would have liked to stay longer but my Companion Cat is getting old and missed me a lot this time

Dec

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outlanderSenior Contributor19 Sept 2018, 9:47 pm AEST

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oh dear the poor girl, i do hope they can help her this time and not leave her in the same awful position and pain she was in the last time @Owlunar
contacting her again sounds like a good thing.

thats ok, not everyone is a gift wrapper. im usually the one who does the gift wrappying because im home the most so i can spend time doing that while kids are at school and mum is at work. christmas doesnt really seem all that far away now does it.

oh that is really good news, im glad your knee is feeling better. it seems your holiday done you some good both mentally and physically too.
going again next yr sounds lovley, your much braver than me i wouldnt get up in a helicopter!

i bet Companion cat did miss you, but your back now and can get as much love and affection as she likes.

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OwlunarSenior Contributor19 Sept 2018, 9:53 pm AEST

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I have really started to flap my wings going to the north of Australia this time - that is the furthest I have been

Flying is much easier than it was when I was younger - like ages ago - the prop jets would shake the plane like crazy and no one could hear anyone else - not even the person next to them - and it wasn't really pleasant the first few times I flew so a helicopter doesn't seem that scary

And that was a really good holiday

I have enjoyed chatting tonight @outlander but I will say good night and go to bed now because I am getting cold again -

Hopefully I will catch you on-line tomorrow - it does help to chat with people

I hope you sleep well - I will just read for hours most likely

Dec

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outlanderSenior Contributor19 Sept 2018, 10:02 pm AEST

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I have enjoyed chatting to you too @Owlunar i hope you sleep ok and can get nice and warm
Goodnight sleep well ❤😴💌

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OwlunarSenior Contributor20 Sept 2018, 10:47 am AEST

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Thanks @outlander

It was really good chatting last night - I was feeling out of sorts when I started posting but after sharing I felt a lot better and got warm and had a good night's sleep

It's amazing how much sleeping can improve the way we feel - I wish you could get better sleep - I know you are an insomniac which must be really hard when you have so much to do during the days with your work and your being a carer to so many

I hope you feel okay today- or as okay as you can be

Dec

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outlanderSenior Contributor20 Sept 2018, 1:47 pm AEST

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Hi @Owlunar im really glad you managed sleep and were able to get nice and warm.
I hope todays a good one for you ❣💗

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