im back..... i think

@outlander - I hear you. Although yes we have mentioned try not to worry about them and take a step back, it is easier said than done. As you said it is you in that situation and each individual deals with it differently. All we can ask is for you to try and support you if that is not possible.

I hear what you saying that it is difficult and it gives you anxiety to head out to your horses. What those girls are doing to you is unfair and immature. If I could I would give them my 2 cents. I am sorry that your mum is not supportive and that she just telling you to get over it. It is hard when you have all these questions and when you feel alone. Just know you are not. Your family on these forums are with you. You know if I could I would physically hold your hand and walk out with you, help you with your horses. If I had magic I would make an invisibility cloak like Harry Potter had for you. All I can offer to you outlander is just my words and to tell you that know that I am there spiritually next to you, holding your hand when you do this - be it today, tomorrow, next week, next month etc.

thanks @Anony18

its jsut so hard and again i probably wont go tomorrow either- im avoiding it as much as possible

life isnt very fair

and i know if you could you would be with me and i know the forum is my family

ok @Anony18

i dont feel very good

Hi @outlander,

I can't imagine how isolating this would feel for you. Bullying is so SO terrible. It can eat away at self-esteem and erode your sense of self. It's really disappointing to hear about your mum's response to this. Sometimes parents just don't get the impact that is has on people. Bullying can have a significant impact.

Bullies usually find scapegoats to take out their frustrations and issues on. It's not a reflection on you, it more a reflection of how low their own self-esteem is - they need to squash someone else's to feel better about themselves. Don't let them do this. What they're doing is really not ok. Is there anyone else you can tell? Maybe someone who runs the stables?

thanks @Former-Member

yeah ive got the final 2 episodes to watch tonight and ill be headin to bed to watch them soon. i dont want it to be the final 2 episodes 😞 i want to watch more and after that i have nothing else to watch until i get more. you cna come lay with me if you like and watch them with me

im in need to go to the Barossa Valley at the moment though cause im not feeling too good- might need to get in to see my gp soon as i feel really sick and anti- nausea nor anti-acid tabets havent worked yet

and this cold isnt helping me out either and i keep doing verps at the moment

@CherryBomb

ive never felt more alone than what i do now and i think i wouldnt be here now if it iwasnt for the forums keeping me slightly sane

no one cares- im not surprised about that either- they havent supported me for a long time except for being a slave

oh she gets it Cherry- its just me if it was one of my younger sisters good grief it wouldve been sorted out along time ago

they squashed me- if i could get any more squashed id be burried- im already slding around on my belly ike a snake to even get out- avoiding people, hiding away, tryiny not to get noticed so no one has a reason for anything

i ahve no one else to talk to other than on here- i havent got any other supports

and the property owner probably wouldnt be happy be happy about whats going on but shes already had too much drama there and also her mum is very sick as well so i dont want to bother her with it

You're not alone @outlander, we're here for you.

I went through something similar in my early teens, and it's horrible. Funnily enough the girls that gave me grief ended up being quite unpopular within a few years, and I ended up with more friends. The point of this story is that it didn't last forever and it got better.

You're not alone @outlander, we're here for you.